hey you guys.
i'm sad. i think i'm going to go into depression soon.
suddenly the thought of jumping off tp library's 11th storey don't seem so bad.

i've just been hit again.
twice in a row. hope today won't be another. i don't like hat-tricks of pain. especially since its my own. first tpsu then the supposed lecture clique. i hate confrontations. sometimes i wish i could just be oblivious to everthing that surrounds me. my life sucks. i think people who don't know me thinks i'm pathetic with the way i live. i don't mind really. cos usually what u see is what u get rite? wrong. next time, know me first. don't judge me. don't say things you think i am. cos u don't know the damage you're doing. in the future, stuff don't usually work out. yesterday was one of the worse days. notice, worse not worst. it hasn't reach that point yet. cos my inner body won't allow it. me has not broken down yet. she's the strongest one among all of us. she supports myself and i when we're bleeding to death crying out the pain. but her cries is one you'll not hear nor see. her cries are to Allah. only Allah knows.

that said and done, mid sems are next week. after hari raya haji. and i don't think my family will be going to the sacrifise this year though its like the tradition of our family. anyways, we'll see how it goes. my econs is fully covered already. and bus stats oso. i doing notes for econs only. and maybe mbs. but mbs and fa alot to cover and practice. and i still have ob. shessh. lucky my freehand drawing is like covered ald lah. no exams and i've been getting A grades and 1 B+ cos its painting. and i suck at painting. hahahs.

k lah. i need to buy my younger bro's books now. and lots of grocery shopping to do. and revision too. hope its a better day today. i oni have ob tutorial at 4. wt...

17 years

hey.
i'm like finally back to blogging. here that is.
cos someone (yes ain, dear girl u!) said she's tired of coming to my blog seeing the 1st week of school has ended entry.

honestly, being 17 has no diff to me.
except now got more ppl who wish me. and it makes me happy=)
thank you to all those who did. thru gifts, smses, tags, pics, etc. i love u all a lot lah.
and someone better take me to my 1st nc16 movie ah please?
one year has passed and i still haven't got that checked off the must-do list. hahahs

ouh!!
i wanted to say rite...i love my new groups in school!
damn funny ah they all. seb, yy, desmond and i tot i would never say this, but yeah, mark:)
i'm liking school more these days. mostly coz its almost to year end and stuffs always pop up!
like lunch dates and super random outings. hahax!

but the work load is also increasing. dunno if its due to my bad time management or my laziness but i can't find the time to complete my fa2 tutorials. altho its gonna be the death of me, i know its like the most important subject. and altho the lecturer can become a bitch(most times) and a sucker for life, i love her. she's good lah. i think the cohort has finally found a time to shut when its lecture time:) not that i hate the noise, i just don't like to be distracted, especially when this subject means a lot to alot of people. god, i can't believe our reputation among all the tp teachers. hahas! awesome lah. in an incredible crude manner, we're good:) not bad for freshmen huh?

i really have to stop being so slaggy all the time. need to buck up my gpa. and considering i'm not good and many ppl in my cohort are among the Zs , i'm gonna die if i don't do it. btw, i think the cohort this year alot of party ppl. that's why there's like a huge gap between the highest and the lowest. bah!

1 thing i realised during the time i was gone. ppl's virtue are easily sold off man. like seriously, stop being a hypocrite lah. the world has too many problems ald lah without having ppl like you to add to it. kalau tak nak pakai tudung, jangan pakai langsung ah. bukak tutup, bukak tutup. ingat kedai 7-11 pe? shessh! to ppl who may not understand it, its just something abt the ppl of my religion who treats islam like crap. sometimes i just need to bitch about them for a bit.

that said and done, I SUPER DUPER LOVE PENTAS. i laughed damn hard i think my intestines burst!! && I SUPER HATE MAG of TP. i'm a hater so kill me. i hate the fact that performing in malay arts group, ppl's hijab had to be taken off. they are not even in a workforce yet lah. and even if they are, they shudn't be in that job! MENYAMPAHHHHHHHH!!!!!

have i updated on samba? hahas! i love those ppl. lovex8. that infinity sign is screwed man. wakakakakks! i'm performing tmr again. at flyer-esplanade the area. its gonna be so cool ah:)
jangan jealous ah....

so i'm like duber busy with tuts and stuffs and all.
but here's something i find bloody funny just now.

Ct says:
not fair

Ct says:
ur life is so simple

.Crimsado.Geek. . ` He wants to be the Dolly Parton of the rock world . - says:
whaat?

.Crimsado.Geek. . ` He wants to be the Dolly Parton of the rock world . - says:
simple is bore. chaos is magic. mistakes are beautiful.

.Crimsado.Geek. . ` He wants to be the Dolly Parton of the rock world . - says:
wow, that's so going on my PM..

Ct says:
wakakakakakkak!!

&& if anyone wants a tamil lead call my cell. i'm my younger bro's manager:)) heeeeee!

I'D LIKE A FOOT LONG! (inside joke>.< but if u think hard enough u'll get it!)

boing!

FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL IS DONE!!
and it seriously was AWESOME>.<
minus a few not so flattering moments. and all that rain. k fine, i like rain.
but not the humidity.
nor the stupid financial let-down. like wth, lehman bothers...

so anyways...STARTED MONDAY WITH A BANG!!
9 am lectures isn't so very bad. not now anyways. since i found a new way to get to school:)
take bus 8. which on average get me to school in like 30 minutes? woooots! kudos SBS!

oh! && i love OUTINGS WITH AIN. ok. overstatement. I LOVE AIN!! the best talking/bitching/laughing ur ass off buddy like forever. and now i have a new favourite hotspot!
POPEYES T1 PUH-LEEESSSSEEE!!!

and oh! please don't ask me put up any pics here. it's such a chore and waste terrible time which i can't afford to lose. truthfully, i hate getting a failed posting everytime. urgh!

where was i? oh ya! monday. then i had samba. i love samba juniors please? cos we just rock>.<
and here's a shoutout. Tamborim's the best lah...

so yah...the rest of the week were fun too!
got samba OUTFIT! hang out with a&f malay clique. 1st freehand DRAWING lesson. met fira:) and daniel's in the same class too. bestlah! and next week's holiday. so SAMBA like back to back next week. tuesday, wednesday. and so nice timing and all. cos rite... its like right after my makeup lessons and all:)

i must start doing tutorials already! waa.... but for a better GPA, i'd do anything. my money's going bust soon. or rather, my parent's money. books aje cost like 50++ for 1 subject. the others 30++. and lecture notes some more. and those books are like COMPULSORY! seriously... i'm dying ah. i feel bad asking my parents for cash. if really needed then i buy ah. the 50++ one that is. sakit seh nak keluarkan duit. and i haven't even topup my monthly concession. cos tak cukup duit. like since the start of this sem, i'm like in constant need on cash. planning to pay back my parents money soon. go use the money i got from cdc ald. k problem settled. apelah bodoh sangat! wakakakas!

k i going off ald. tmr planning to go cycling in the morning, then i have like 2 wedding/tunang events to go to. OUR OH SO FAB! COUSIN IS FINALLY TOUCHING THE HOMIE! if not she forever busy with her work ah. finally she'll have little ones around her which are her own. not her brothers'. LOL! no offence yeah beb? I LOVE YOU, u know that right?

anyways, all the best KAK WIT TERSAYANG!!

k god bless. peace. && i love you(*with barney accent) hehehes!

exasperating fool of a female

& it was another night i found sleep elusive.
we all know what that meant.

the pain of today hurts like no other.
i could only be thankful for friends and family who stood by my side to lighten the burden of life.
for life of a yet-to-be-17-confused-and-love-besooted-girl is very tough indeed.
somehow i wished i hadn't enjoy myself too much these last few days. for an old saying goes, "too much laughter, is a sign of a coming tear"
and only i know how true that is. for even i didn't notice the tears wetting my spongebob tee as i'm penning this down.

i should have known, this would be coming sooner or later, for i know from experience, joy can only last for so long.
i tried so hard to numb myself against this pain but it didn't help one bit. for i am only human.
i felt so helpless as i stared into his downcast face. i felt so terribly sad i'm not one deserving of his attention, even worse, than that bloody good handphone of his. i felt hopeless. a feeling i had long discarded on the rotting shelf of my past life.

but then again, everything was wrong from the beginning. beginning of time, of life, of semester, of month, of day. sad to say, even after a wonderful day spent with friends, samba people and all, i was still caught up in my own feelings.

life as it was; utterly disappointing at times when you've been kicked so hard in the gut and there's no one to save you except for your good-for-nothing self.

& to think i had dared to believe for a happily-ever-after that was not to be. so despo was i for the life i've imagined i could lead. i was naive enough to believe tomorrow would be a better day. and see where that had gotten me. stupidly forgetting the ever important psea form, till i had to get myself drenched again and again as i'm getting my sorry ass to school again, encountering with devils of my own, getting sucky timetable for a new semester and not getting any cds at all! and to top the crop, i had forgotten to blog on blog action day and post a birthday wish to ina and ain!
bah.... i'm hoping the cake smeared onto their faces would be enough though:) hehehes....sori..camat ari aye, maap zahir batin ye... wakakakkas! :))

so weird how i can entertain myself and laugh at a simple yet complicated joke. weee!!

btw, for people who wants pics of the birthday celebration...urm, later i send via email je k? i damn lazy now and really need to catch up on sleep. and tmr still got a&f workshop. yeah..."kids" will be coming in. i'm hoping i'll be able to make myself look smarter than them (*inner mind whispers, "like real...") so anyways... see u when i see u aites.

in the meantime, i love you always:))

I'M BACK!!

thanks for the wishes while i was away.

I MISSED SO MANY THINGS WHILE I WAS AWAY!!

samba jalan raye among many things.

&& my mum's and uncle's day-case operations!! omg.

anyways...THE TRIP WAS

GAZILLIONIOUSLY-SUPER-DUPER-SUMO-SLAMDUNK- AWESOME!!

point done. i'm waiting for pics from siao wei and shawn. our ingenious photographers.

i was bunked in with stella, charmaine, siao wei and ms lee. all the important people of the trip.

and sad to say, i was down since the start so i wasn't all that sparkling translator nor was i the dependable room i/c. LOL! to be honest, i was the worst. kept everyone awake with my coughing that "shook the whole HUT!" according to charmaine! but then again, i'll take credit where due. hehehes!

so anyways!

1st and 2nd day was spent mostly at pesantren al-ghazi. I was like self-elected full-time translator and caretaker of the kids there. cos i was the only one who understood what they were talking about most of the time. and the kids were SO CUTE!! too bad i didn't get to take much photos. but when i was there, i learnt so much about so many things. i also understood the people there better. i think this trip is one of my stepping stones into maturity. like truly. bad and good was all there.

3rd day was SHOCKINGLY BLASTABULOS! what with boomnetting (that's the real fun part where you get go jump into a net at the sides of a speeding boat!) and first-time kayaking (alone!) and swimming towards another ISLAND! and not forgetting the blood-churning 10-storey high FLYING FOX INTO THE SEA! it was all FUN!! one of the reasons i didn't wish to go home on the last day. oh btw, I HAVE AFFAIRS there!! hahahas! to think of it now, it brings on a smile on my face:)) cos rite, i'm the only malay girl there, leading to all the incessant teasing from the loola coordinators especially dul! irritating lor! he came with a speedboat, zoom pass me, so that i can't kayak cos of the waves. and he did it TWICE. ON PURPOSE!! wth. lols!

i am really glad i didn't have doubts about the trip cos i think i share samuel's view. this is one of the best camps you can ever go through. its 4 days worth of experience that you can bring with you throughout your whole life. i learnt appreciation, discipline, responsibility, honesty and simplicity.

life is great when u take the chance to step back and look at it from a new point of view. that's all i can say.

oh btw, on the last post right, bs screwed me up. so i didn't get to post up the post. it was about my hari raya celebration and all. and photos also can't be uploaded. i dunno wats wrong but planning to find out soon. as for now, i'm off to jalan raye with my primary school friends. i swear it'll be fun. 11 people going man! awesome or what? WOOOOO!!!

BINTAN!...*cough*cough

HEY!!


i'm sick.
such depressing news considering i must be well by sunday:(

oh btw, i'm departing for bintan on monday. reporting time: 7am, tanah merah taxi stand.

and my task there, translator cum culture/language breaker.
and god help me, i hope i'm well when i'm there. and my period will stop soon. please!

i need to report lots of stuff.

i officially in IG. most probably and hopefully in main comm. cos we've gone through lots of troubles doing up the getWET Day stuffs and all. not to mention the bad-day interview.
btw, dry run for getWET was awesome! considering we got almost everyone soaking wet(literally!) shessshhh:DD

i'm missing samba truckloads. cos i missed the last training and i dunno when's the next training. we're performing in the arts fest in November (hint! hint!) in a collaborative effort with salvo drums!! just imagine the BOOM of it! :) hehes!

my room is made up. like WOW! well, besides the fact that i painted the whole bloody room myself, (with double coating!) and did all the furnitures in it DIY, and the designs haven't been painted yet, i think its ok:) oh btw, i did and redid the designs truckloads of times. need ur help to choose which one will look the nicest when painted against a pure white wall.




and my house's brand new too. well, as in the feel of it>.<>

i'm gonna post up another blog rite after this one ok? cos i think this part is done:)

so...how'd you like my neopets?
just fed them so they are delightedly happy:)
wakakaka!

early ramadhan

hey lovies.

in this month full of love and virtue,

i would like to seek forgiveness for everything i've ever done wrong.

and i'm praying for a world which is happier, lovelier and more wonderful.

i'm happy for myself today:)

cos i saw light instead of dark.

i saw the freshness of air after rain instead of looming in the darkness caused by it.

ouh, last monday was ig meetup cum one day camp kinda thing.

it was fun:) well, i'm biased cos my group won. hahax!

anyways, wasn't really a good day for wet day for me yah but i survived.

though not without sacrifises.

i must tell you i hate(exclamation mark!) wearing those tampons. eeewwwww!

but yeah, a girl's gotta do what a girl hadta do.

ouh, i'll show ya pics. but here's a very high warning.

i looked sucky in all photos.

and i soon realised, all photos i take during this month turns out ugly.

probably because i'm fasting although i don't have to. dumb luck man! shessh!

and i saw dis cutie. at the market. so decided to buy the whole pack of carrots just so i can get dis little baby:)

and have i told you? i miss you so damn much sister! when we gonna meet? waaaa!

ouh, dis month is the start of monsoon. just in case you haven't notice the climate change. it's freezing everytime. so keep warm darlings. don't catch a cold and get sick yah?

i still haven't patronise 2 of my family and friends bazaar ramadhan shops.
kak den and gang- The block across AMP Pasir Ris
ain and gang - Sultan mosque area

soon k guys? insyallah:)

Spring Cleaning

My house is under-going through cleaning:)
always bad news for me cause my chores suddenly go triplefold. sheessh...

anyways, right now i'm planning the look of my new room.
need to find out the colours, the contrast, the new arrangement of furnitures, lots to throw away for sure. hehe!
that will mean 2 things.
1) i'll be tired as hell this few days
2) i gonna get new stuff:) bestnye!

today got kenduri. dunno if i wanna go or not.
bro went for an interview for a job he didn't know he applied for.

ouh! i forgot the most important reason for blogging.

i'm damn angry and sad! my period just came!
like 2 days before puase! WTH!!
sobbing here*
coz i need to complete the first 50 pages of the quran by the first week.
if not cannot finish.
and considering it, i have more to do during the fasting month.
Allah give me strenght please:)

k bye^.^
p.s u like the songs i just put up? hehehs. nice rite?

OLA!!

long time no blog. miss lah. k fine, i miss everyone.*dush dush!*

miss zue, kak norls, huda, ha..(oops), samba people, gile2 people, nass people... waaaa!

and most of all, i've been missing you.

yes, my life. you. heheh, jangan kembang eh!

rite now,

i feel bubbling happiness. i feel cherished and loved.

i love my family. and friends. and most of all Allah.
thank you for everything. i'm blessed because of you. love you;)

on that note, i might not blog everyday.

and no brenda, call me time and again, i won't come to work.

i'm too busy enjoying my life.

well, not enjoy, enjoy. but content.

even with this stupid nose sneezing blood again.

and my body not stopping to warm itself.

yeah. i'm sick. but i think i'm better now:)

i've been a pig. not that i'm gloating.

sleep. eat. read comics. blow nose. sleep. thats the cycle.

intend to break it today.
cos tomorrow's teacher's day.

no link. k fine.

wait, got leh. cos garfield's my number 1 teacher:) wakakaka!

ouh, saturday got kenduri arwah. i miss the old guy already.
i din tell you yet. the only guy i've ever called atuk died last friday.
he died thursday nite. sedih seh. i went over as soon as my paper ended.
he's kak norls grandad. somehow, he's related.

you know what make it even more sad?

his immediate family members came strolling in,

after his body was brought over to Darul Gufran mosque for prayers. wt..

death is the topic these few days. and ghosts.

like wth... i do ghost. but yeah, sometimes i wish i don't.

amalina, ain and me went popeyes yesterday. at airport T1. damn nice:)

the food, the environment, the long talk, the laughing:)

save the part where i felt like my nose was frozen ice. literally.

cos the moment we got onto the "sauna" cargo lift, my nose just started bleeding. dumn luck.

today's plans were cancelled. no ikea. no courts. no giant:( only rain.

when are you gonna get painted and decorated 19-year old room?

but then again, day was not wasted:)

considering i slept half of it off, and i read garfield comics which were highly motivating.

and i finally fed my pets. then i watched malay dramas at tv3.

this one is very good:) that coming from me, its a must-not-miss.

then there's dendam.

haven't finish watching all but then i think the story line not as fun as kekasihku seru.
kekek ah:P

eh btw rite, my exams went well.

i'm hoping no sub paper.

so i can enjoy puase and holidays in peace.

and daddy got a new job:) so proud lah.

he working as a medical officer assistant or something.

well, basically, he drives the ambulans and fixs stuff:) u noe how great that is? fuyoh.

make way world, a new hero is on the way>.<

and i think my hormones raging up again.

stupidity have a way of making me follow its footsteps.

sheesh.

k bye:)

u noe what?
my current feeling is bittersweet.
happy sangat cos the piles of work i've left to rot is finally clearing up.
so sedih cos sem 1 coming to an end. and i have too much to do now. and i didn't get to go for the d&d committee. no time.

k byes:)

stop being jealous of others.
be happy for them:)

and be even much, much more happier for yourself.
you don't know how much you'll miss by not doing so.

a great friend told me that.
and for that i thank you, zy:)


btw, forgot to say this the last time.
i know i'm damned lag.
but in the end, i'll get there. i swear.
finished watching heroes 2. stupid ending. truly.
got a C for financial accounting. 60% paper here i come.
need to get at least 85 marks to get A.
75 if i want a B. like crap rite? i noe.
i have this stupid feeling i'll screw up my first sem. urgh!

of all things. my trip to bintan is confirmed. so...6 october here i come:)

X-hausting!!

fuuyooohhh!!
glad the day was OVER!
theheess!

had so much fun...
oh btw, HAPPY B'DAE ARIPP!!!
don't break too many glass now yeah? wkakakakak!

OH! OH!
there's one reason for posting today.
and that is solely to say...
M&M CRU DON'T DESERVE TO WIN!
heck, i think the crowd was JEERING?! hahahahah!
mean siti. but yeah, wadever. ADCD WOOOOO!
for those slow ones
yesterday, there was a final showdown to determine the winner.
so, at the teen choice award, they held the freaking battle.
not fair. cos i had to be in singapore. it was our birthday man! boohoo.
so anyway, for more info, click here.

and YAY!! to my class!
we're happie again! woots!
and to all students in TP, THE VERY BEST OF LUCKS YAH?
we'll all study and get good grades=)
like i'm sure we'll all party like hell after that.

u noe wat. i just realised something.
i have lesser than a week to celebrate before its puase ald. waaaaaaaa....
but nevermind...
i have a goal.
to qatam my Quran again.
before hari raya dis year.
i've been lagging on my ngaji and that can't be good.
hehehe!

and if you're free, and have got nothing to do besides hanging around late at night these days...
shame on you.
1) cos i'm jealous
2) cos its hungry ghost
3) cos you're not studying! bad boy/girl! wakakak!

anyways. saw something i'd like to share wif you guys.
don't know if its meaningful or anything. hehes!

i saw the effects of a cosmopolitan singapore today.
firstly. i saw a wedding. not surprising considering the date (08/08/08) of the day before.
secondly. i saw a family burning incence for the dead. not surprising considering the month.
thirdly...i saw kuda kepang being done at the grass area. and every performer was using RED! i don't know if its in occasion of national day or what. but red isn't exactly a colour you'd wear around kuda kepang performance.
here's the catch.
all of those things i saw, was in the same area. the place near the Holy Trinity church. the grass patch area was a little smaller than the size of my HOUSE!! wth...

okok. enuf said.
damn sad never take photo today.
a lot of fun stuffs lor!! hahahax! will remember that on the next birthday celebration. weeee!

milk and cookies

for those who knows me for who i truly am...
you would know what the title of the post means...

yes, i'm offering a peace offering.
i know the time i've not been around has sparked off so many painful critisisms about me.


to my classmates...
i am sorry you felt what you felt.
i didn't say you guys were noob shit.
if you had read the post correctly, i said,"this is just noob shit"
so please, stop seeing what you want to see. i didn't mean it that way.

and, as far as i am concerned, i've never been included in any activites you guys participated in.
for example purposes; "D3m0n: u r the one who left early n y didnt u wait for us tat u cn b in the photo too? dun anyhow comment on class photos girl..."
it is not cos i didn't want to. its cos you guys never told me about it.
so who's in the wrong now?
is it me? who don't understand 98% of the stuff you guys talk about?


and please, this is my blog.
i know you guys feel that its wrong to "comment on class photos"
but like what you said and i admit its true.
it is just a comment. why so angry joker?
i don't know if your purpose is to bring down my esteem and pride, whatever...
however, whatever you guys are doing is wrong.
and this is verbal insult. it would come under the law penalty. i am protected.
you guys don't know it yet, but this may be one of the rarerest post i wrote against someone.


i rarely bitch around in post.
if you had read it since i entered 1A07, i had never said a single bad thing about the class.
even when you guys confronted me for saying,"shut up!" in class.
except for that single line when i said the class photo was depressing.
even then, i had never said anything bad about you guys.

i just wrote down what i felt.


if you guys have been tagging on my blog with nasty comments about me so freely,
why cant i write down what i want in my own blog?
seems fair isn't it

i can't apologise for something i don't think is wrong.
not because of pride.
its because my guilty conscience won't allow it.


but for you guys i'd be willing to do anything.
if only you would see it.
on that first day with you guys, and the consequent weeks after,
it was great.
i've posted about it before.
then, we just got caught up with the works of poly...cliques.
jocelyn told me its only natural.
so fine, i stepped back to give you guys more space.
but what have you interpret that as, me having a "sulky attitude"

and like heck.
your war is with me. don't fight with any of my family and friends.
if you want to make someone the victim, why not just make it me?
i don't mind all of your hurtful words.
i can take it.
but please don't inflict it on them.

they know me better than you guys do at any rate.
like seriously, you guys don't even know my second name is khairunnisa.
not knowing how to pronounce it or even spell it.
yes you can find out, but whoever has time enough to even ask?
you guys don't know i can be nice.
you guys don't know who i am.
cos you guys never talk to me.
so i don't blame you for thinking as you did.

lets just take it as a way to better ourselves.
not everyone is perfect.
and who am i in the eyes of perfection?

so if you would...
tomorrow is national day eve.
i would like to celebrate with you guys with no hard feelings.
i've been bad at posting stuff i knew might hurt you.
i didn't even know you guys had my blog link.
so for that, i apologise.
i'm sorry.
from the bottom of my heart.
please accept it?

if you do,
please wear red on friday.
celebrate our happiness together like last time^.^
it's most probably the last time we'd get to do this kindda stuff.
besides, i know red is the guys favourite colour.
you wear it every week.
correct me if i'm wrong alrite:)

anyways, see you guys when i see you.
by then, i hope we can look at each others eyes and smile:)

i'm over it.
you don't scare me anymore.

hey. i'm gonna be super random:P
i realised i wanted to have a life soon. really soon. counting down to this 16th.
exams are like hell. masya'allah.
projects all ending soon. alhamdullilah.
someone's got a crush:)
i haven't got over mine yet:(
realised i can be a huge bitch. but just because>.<

i have beautiful girls surrounding my life. jealous boys? hahaha!

BAO!! WOOO!

hot, hot catwomen! FUYOH!!

sayang zue truckloads!!! <333

Kah Yuen!! weee!!

<333

gerekness(& camwhore partner) ina

magician guy n xy=)

winners for the day. wee ector!

pray for everything and everything will be fine:)
k bye.

i gave up giving a title for this post. hahahahh!

just now was my first official gathering at tpsu lounge:)
in lieu of ector's first dinner gathering:)) hehehez.

anyways...learnt some stuff from kah yuen. how the duty works and stuffs.
swear i learnt so much about ector people today.
they are damn fun lah. and super sporting. bahahah! (*evil laugh)

i think i'll do ABCs of ector.
A-wesomeness like totally!
B-abes are super hot
C-atwoman is our idol
D-isgustingly creative (*gasp- soon kueh! drinks/food/clothings)
E-xciting(*SCREAM DAMN LOUD!)
F-ish love ector!
G-uys got lotsa enthu power!
H-appy people:))
I-nteresting magic shows! (go alson! woots!)
J-ohn & jessy is just the definition of coolness
K-illingkiss is the email address i always see informing me of meetups n stuff(that's jiayi aka town btw, my sister. heheh!)
L-atif is super funny. really. his expression, priceless.
M-eaningless cheers! WEEE!
N-erds are loved. especially those thick-glasses<33
O-pposites attract:)
P-ool is the game our guys play. me? i don't even noe its called pool.
Q-ueen of excalibur:) (considering we got 2nd. but still...in chess, we rule! hah!)
R-ui heng is my lounge duty partner!
S-o love my girlfriends met there!
T-aking photos are weird:)
U-nderstatement if u call us hyper! WWOOO!! (we rock the cheer team!)
V-ery understanding (lets face it, we're proactive)
W-E ARE A TEAM! hahahs!
eX-tra good with inventive stuff
Y-ESSA! is a common word:)
braZ-illian YO! (wee eugene!)

k done. hehe! tmr we all dressing up as catwomen. can't wait seh. it'll be damn weird cum funny cum everything mashed together. hahahahh!

heyho!

hey!

i've made it a point to blog only when i'm happy.

this is to prevent unwanted happenings.
you have no idea how many blog post i didn't put up.

cos i'm nice:)

ANYWAYS....

today's topic is fun.

while window-shopping with ina today(which i must say is the first of many more), i saw this cd at the kiddy section of CD-RAMA at Popular.

it was titled; ELMO'S: WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?

ina and me had the same thought; good question. so...for this whole year, i have a new resolution.

to find the answer to that not-so-kiddy question.

(portion deleted due to negative responses)

ANYWAYS...
back to happy stuffs.
can i just upload photos of my happy life thus far? ok:)

BAIK SAMBA!! <333>

KIDS<333

still kids<333>

TP<3333>

heeez:))

*P.S. this is the record of pictures posted in 1 blog. baik pe>.<

when you're stressed up

edit photos:)

my final exams are coming up
i have presentations and group works almost everyday of the week
deadlines after deadlines

time just goes tick-tock-tick-tock
then it's gone
sometimes i wonder where my life flew to

i'm missing everyone of my friends
i mean it.

i can't help myself
i feel so many negative feelings nowadays.
i felt anger so often.
i felt like quitting.
me...siti khairunnisa.
do you know how sad that is?
the world is dying. i can feel its depression.

thankful i am for the people who come up randomly in my poly life.
if only to say hello
cos some don't do it.
they see me, they look away. don't know why.

you ask me when's the last time i laugh in class..
you ask me when's the last time i even smiled...
my reply,"i have no idea"

it is that sad.

i need to find myself again.
if only...

btw...15 is number of the day
i failed my 1st test. FA1 class test which is 15% of my module.
by 1.5 marks.
if you were to remember, i almost got an A for the 1st test
by 1.5 marks
and here's the scary part.
my register number in class is 15
my birthday falls on the 15th
the amount in my wallet is $15
the bus i take to school is 15.

if its not coincidence i don't know what is

not so happy day

i lost 3 things today.
things i wouldn't have imagined getting depressed over until i lost them.

goodbye my pencil case(and everything in it)...
goodbye my tpsu water bottle...
goodbye my love...

i'm losing my patience soon if this situation keeps up.
i mean it.
i'll just lose it.

do you know about Murphy's Law??
yeah...
that's my situation basically...

back to work.
i'm losing my focus.
next week still got 2 test coming up.

me want cookie!!

i told u so=))

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth. You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around. You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speech How you live your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

blogging

someone declared war with me on my tagboard.
he/she didn't even take up my milk-n-cookies peace offering.
now i'm upset. no one likes the look on siti's face when she's upset.
he/she is with a group as far as i'm concerned.
i truly would know where i've gone wrong.
please oblige my 1 wish of knowing who you are. please and thank you.

moving on... i'm busy nowadays.
i have a fa1 class test at 6+ later i seriously doubt i'll pass the test.

i had a great week last week.
like from zero to WO!

got myself into a&f ig subcomm n CARE.
made my 100% attendence history.
missed samba again:(
recovered fully from stomach flu only to get killer throat and sinus in the morning"_"
went for 1st subcomm camp.
met wonderful people. like ina:)
my brother got chicken pox but still went for ndp pre-show.
went for cpf and played sennunai like crap:)
did pt every morning during the weekend.
realised tutoring huda is like playtime.
celebrated dear naquiyah's burfday.
went for ig meeting and realised i'm now running for main comm.
and i really don't think i'll pass fa test tmr.
so yah. that's basically it.
tell you what, i've not been updating on things i shud have months back.
and i really don't think i would.
so for more info, call this number..........

i won't give you my number here.
i've had 3 stalkers before and wouldn't want to repeat the experience, thank you.
but link here link there, i'm sure you'll be able to add me at msn.
then maybe, i'll give you a chance to ask for my number and take me out to a date:)

but take from my experience,
some people may reject all those hard work with a simple "haha" and it really cuts to the quick.
even if your intentions were clear and had nothing to do with the fact that you're having a crush on that guy/girl.

painful truth man.
just like how i forget so many new people i meet this week only. sheesshhh....

Personality tests

AMPM Personality Test

Based on the Five Factor Model credited to Goldberg, Costa and McRae, the Advanced Multidimensional Personality Matrix - Lite is a shortened version of our comprehensive personality assessment designed to provide you with valuable insight into your character, aptitudes, and disposition. The AMPM is based on the theory that all human personality traits belong to one of five broad dimensions of personality. Each of the five main personality traits stretches along a continuum. The personality traits tested in the questionnaire are consistent cross-culturally, and are fairly stable over time, beginning in young adulthood. An understanding of your position on each dimension can provide you with valuable insight into your personality

Snapshot Report
Extroversion
86/100
You are extroverted, preferring the company of others rather than spending time alone. Extroversion refers to an outward and interactive orientation. Extroverts are stimulated by being around others and are often considered gregarious or outgoing. People with this orientation usually have a lot of friends, and find it easy to interact with strangers. They tend to feel lonely and withdrawn when denied the company of others. When extroverts feel bad, low on energy, or stressed, they look outside themselves for relief. They might go shopping, call friends to come over, or arrange a party

From psychTests.com
(answered 291 questions lah...wt?)

Your Personality Type: Leader
Your sparkling personality, emotional strength, and flexibility make you the Leader. You are the kind of person that everyone trusts and respects. When there's a problem to be solved, you don't give up until you reach some kind of insight or creative solution. Others admire your take-charge attitude. Your conscientious and compassionate attitude does not allow you to stand idly by in the presence of any kind of injustice. You gravitate toward people and social activity, and others are drawn to you by your gregariousness and charisma. Your hard work and open mind inspire and motivate others. You are a true leader.

from: INvoKe.SG

The Purr-fect Partner
Jul 7, '08 4:07 AMfor everyone

So what’s your type?

They say every good girl needs a guy with an attitude. Oooh.. And then there’s the smooth poster-boy types, which I guess are okay if one’s in the market for the kind of lurvinn that sells greeting cards. *wink Personally, pretty boys don’t interest me much. A guy who looked as though, he’d lived, crossed a few lines and would cross a few more. Uh-hmm now we’re talking.

So guy takes you out right. Picture this. Guy buys you chocolate. Flowers. The book you wanted from Borders. Whoever said that men don’t pay attention to details. Takes you to a meal. Your heart goes poo-pah. Hallmark moment in the relationship. Okay then comes the party pooper. One word: Parents-supplied-money. From his clothes (you think is such good taste) to the bus fare to the... well basically everything. Yah but it’s the thought that counts so you say. Ok let’s think about the parents working to earn.

So my point being? Bottom line, guys if you can’t even afford a decent meal, it’s not yet time to earn her love. And Girls, using parent’s money to swoon you over is not character. I’m just not sold on charm. Especially sponsored charm. Trying to be charming with parent’s money eh. Burst bubble sey. Maybe it’s an ugly thing to say. Yeah well maybe gifts and looks can’t bring food on the table. *ouch So… perfect partner = someone who can at least stand on his own two feet.

Then there are girls who prefer to couch the perfect partner in qualities, “It’s the qualities that matter. Nice, a gentleman, sincere, loyal, understanding.” I’ve always wondered what is nice, what is sincere, what is loyal, and what is ‘famous’ all understandin gentleman? Think about this: the guy is ‘nice’ (buys you gifts, treats you nice), ‘sincere’ (the gifts as proof of his sincerity in the relationship, ‘loyal’ (well he buys you the gifts, no other) and ‘understanding’ (girls need to be pampered now and then) – with money that is not his. I don’t know about you if there is to be mutual respect between me and the purrrfect partner, then he’s gotta have at least a backbone. And a sense of responsibility.

So, whoever said that girls have impossibly high expectations?



(i tot the post was damn nice. so have to display right? hehehehs!)

random blog hopping

from raudah:)

1. What do you hate about yourself?
NOthiNG??
fish you for even asking!

2. Where would u go if someone sponsors u an air ticket?
SPonSeReD? wooo! MADINAH...MEKAH!!

3. What's your favourite thing to do?
GO CAMPS! I LOVE TP CAMPS!!

4. Do u think money can buy happiness?
u kidding? i'm in accounting and finance! there's such thing called good will?? shessh!

5. If u were given a chance to received something, what would it be?
can it be someone instead? :)

6. Things you can't live without?
i love raudah's answer! damn funny. (For now, my Spectacles and hp. Esp Spec, once I misplaced it or broke it, that’s it. rabun dok..)
lol kape?
as for me...my faith.

7. What are u afraid to lose?
my laughter:DD can u imagine siti without laughters? sad giler!

8. If you win 1 million, what would u do?
invest. i sound like mr chan. GOD! oh! i noe! buy summer house at mekah! then ask everyone stay there:))

9. What do u dream of doing in the future?
doing? idk...HAVE MORE FUN? GEREKS!

10. List out 3 good point the who gave this survey?
NICE! GEREK! && SHORTIE LIKE ME!! woots!!!

11. What makes me happy?
when u say me do u refer to u or to me?
so subjective. shessh!

12. What type of person do u hate most?
i'll give the same answer everytime. THERE'S A TYPE? I DON'T NOTICE!

13. If u could have a superpower what would it be?
Tak nak power ah. i love me for myself:)

14. Which season do u like?
Singapore where got season? it's sunny all year round! and i'm loving it!!

15. What do u think is the most important thing in ur life?
thing? not really thing ah....but its my family. i'd die without them.

16. (personal question) (this is a bonus question!) Who's the person you always blog about?
Ade ah orang tu. READ MY BLOG LAH! gees!

17. Who was the last person who hugged u?
Don't know! Too many hugs at one go. BUT IT WAS FROM FYRHTO PPL!! WOOHOO!!

18. What is the one thing u want it badly now?
1stly...your english sucks! next, can u stop asking things? i'm not materialistic wokay?

19. Whom are u close to?
MUMMY! BROS! ZUE!! woohoo!!

20. Favourite colour of ur world?
BROWN!

instructions : remove one question frm above and add in ur personal question. Make it a total of 20 question then tag 8 people in ur list. List them out at the end of this post. Notify he/she through your tagboard

8 people tagged: Zue, Huda, Qaiyum, ZY, Handsome, Hiu Ching, Aisyah && HAKIM!

conferm satu pun tak buat nanti. tengok je.

GREAT DAY=)

so yah.
just when i thought life's gonna be tough, Allah pat my back and handed me a helping hand.
syukur alhamdullilah!
have i told u Allah, i love you like truckloads lah.

today all my problems seems to be lifted. like when a problem come by, there'll always be someone/thing to help me thru it. i'm thankful for everyone who was around me today. i'm thankful for the happiness i felt. i'm thankful cos today is much better than yesterday:)

if yesterday i mourned for the death of life, today i rejoiced for the moments my breath was taken away. began with me waking up late. 8. lecture, 9. didn't miss anything during fa lecture. how cool was that? then morning sms with zy and zue! in fa lecture! hehe! wonderful lunch with zue's icg! you guys damn funny lah! make my day again please? and of course, everytime i see zue, i feel good:D

3 hours of lab wasn't torture even without me not doing the tutorials. lucky not to be selected. and ms kun damn nice! i like her and csa. basically i like everything today. everything happened impromtu. that's the way i like it! surprise! surprise!

oh! i had a great big weight about me when i left house. i haven't print everything i need for the bursary application and for my portfolio also. however, since i seem to be damn lucky today, everything worked out perfectly, even without my handy dandy cashcard and classmates:)

then come the fyrhto chalet plans. cropped up ah but i'm glad it did. supposed to go at 5 rite? after lesson, sms everyone, semue tak free. ade je bende. and zue, i don't blame u. i pray for your uncle's quick recovery. i'm sure he'll be fine:)

anyways, sms-ed handsome(bao yi) and guess what? she invited me to go to the chalet wif her! :)) happy lah. but while waiting for her to come to school, i was with haslinda, my coursemate, and her friend, syahida. cool shit! random friends are loved:) ate at itas. actually i teman them only. saw many people. shessh:D laugh like crap. gees. TGIF HAPPENED! although not as fun. happen it did. weeeee!

at 6.30, they left for the school pond and i headed off to mushroom. seems to me the school's damn quiet. but even then, the heys to random people occured:P then saw hiu ching again. at the same time, handsome came. this whole bunch had a different agenda. they were heading to the auditorium...for TPSU AGM! freak! hahahah! but sporting that i am, pergi je ah. tup tup, dapat door gift. a laptop case. coolness! and free food after that! not to mention, a quick boom boom! cheer session. everyone was so HIGH!! WOOTZA! lepas satu-satu. BOMBARDMENTS OF GEREKNESS LAH!! weeheee! and hakim was like WOOOO! to think he had just emcee-ed the whole event and still had that much energy in that THIN BODY! hahahah! joking yah?

but fyrhto still the best lah. altho i'm forced to admit, i hate the fact fyrhto was the 3rd to break into cheer mood. wols! hehehehs!

wanna noe wat? during the AGM, i'm inspired but there were still doubts. kudos to hakim for clearing those:) i hope i'll make it in. *prays real hard! going for interview monday wif handsome. monday oso i going to hand in ENDORSED bursary form. fast kan! i realised, that's tp:) and i like it>.<

oh oh! KRIK KRIK! is the new IN THING! go samba! go malay cultural group for adopting and promoting it! HAHAHs!

tomorrow got projects to do. tutorials and lectures to catch up upon. can u imagine? that on an international rest day:P

i guess in the end, i didn't need the chalet to turn my life around. being just me, with god's will, everything's bound to turn right side up!

and something to share, i found it meaningful. can't remember the exact words but it carries the same meaning. (from the slides shown at AGM):

its not the number of breaths we have left that matters, but the moments which takes our breath away...

i feel so lonely today.

very sad.
and alone.

i'm beside myself throughout the day.

and i don't think i'll be in tpsu.
today is a sad day for me.

looking on the brighter side. i'm hoping tmr's a TGIF:)

ya allah, please let tomorrow be better. i'm begging.

i don't think i can stand this torture.
i don't think i can survive it.
i can't live alone.
this is not fair.

i miss lil bro.
please come home soon:(

sick fish

so everyone's been asking me why i call myself fish.
SO?

so everyone know's i'm sick.
SO?

so my family don't believe i'm really sick.
SO?

i'm tired of having to explain myself. it sucks. truly. i guess you're just not worth the explainations much less the impact of my words.

i guess i told you before. one of these days i'm gonna get sick. its past time anyways. i'm always sick latest by may and another sick period would be on the last 3rd quater of the year. so yah.

i was terribly sick on monday. it was searing hot outside but i shivered of coldness inside. like really, 2 blankets and 1 duvet couldn't make me hot enough. (don't think dirty!) i was like freezing lah. my body was numb and my brain kept screaming take panadol. in the end, of course, my mind won and i broke out in cold sweat 3 hours later. my fever was over but that wasn't the end of my misery. the pounding headache became worst and my stomach couldn't quench down its nausea. vomitted till there's nothing to vomit, cried like a baby because of the pain. i felt like dying. thankfully, by morning i was able to walk straight enough to get to the clinic. waited for 1 bloody hour in the queue and another 1 hour to get out of it. by the time i walked home, the sun was bad enough to kill my brain cells. i've been taking frequent showers and drinking water in small portions according to the doctor's advice to cure my stomach flu. the flu was so bad, all my favourite food tasted like baby food and all the drinks like crap. and basically, even though i have eaten, i would feel like i haven't for 10 days. AND THE DOCTOR SAID I HAD DEHYDRATION!! freak rite? i know. he even gave me hydration salts. like what the deuce?

2 days mc. today's the 2nd day already. so fast. i'm missing samba today. sad. wonder what my group is doing in school right now. gosh i miss school. and i've yet to do so mant things.

1) Print the certs for APEL portfolio
2) Print CSA notes
3) Do all my tutorials since last week!
4) Hand in my punchcard
5) Clean my room
6) Update this blog on so many happenings; eg, fyrhto SO? workshop, my batam trip, NAS concert, Samba's 1st performance, etc..

that said. i'll see you again. insyallah. btw, that means, with god's will. yeah...

bye docs!

woosh.

firstly. long time no hear from me huh?
yeah...lots of things happened. my excel's all done and submitted just like the comm skills and newspaper review. got back most of my results. not bad i must say.

comm skills- B+ (2nd highest!)
financial accounting 1- B+ (38.5~ 1.5 more marks to A! stupid carelessness!)
POM- A!! (studied real hard so yah:))

alhamdullilah for all the results. i'm thankful. really. hoping for the best for my Microecons. Scared like brrr!!

on a more solemn note.
one of tp's alumi passed away the other day. it was so sad. but everyone's saying to celebrate his life instead.

so to clifton, although i never knew you, the great tales of you will be passed on and you'll be legend in your own ways. the way you've touched hearts of so many others will continue to make their journey a more meaningful one. to me, you're great cos u make others feel great!
so here's to u buddy, rest in peace.

anyways. life's busy as a bee for me. so if you wanna know how i'm doing just sms or call or wadever. and if there's emergency, and i mean it, even if u have a slight fever, tell me! i realised not being updated sucks big time like what happened today. i felt like a black sheep. or rather a green sheep. my clique, well, my classmates whom i always hung around with all wore yellow today and they didn't tell me bout it. so yah, i'm hurt. i'm not usually this sensitive. blame in on my progesterone or something.

this weekend if you need me tell me 24 hours eaarlier and i mean it. cos today, 11+am-11pm++ i'm having the so?~FYRHTO workshop. and on sunday. morning to early afternoon having the 1st tuition lesson with HUDA BESTIE and i won't screw it up. god, i miss her. and i need buy my black sneakers tomorrow morning for sunday's SAMBA PERFORMANCE! at 4. but must report by 3 for practice. and at 7, it's the ngee ann sec's tapestry and not wanting to disappoint my juniors and needing the art break my soul need, i'll go. besides, i won't miss SEEING KAH CHIN PERFORMING AS AN ALUMNI! hahax! so sunday is a day of first times for me. lol! but, it'll be a great weekend! the best.

i've yet to update bout my batam trip. later ah. it'll be long with all the uploading photos and stuff so yah.

and samba's been great! just so you know. just had a mass chat. :)) loves please? hehe. see u guys again. ouh btw, the last part of the blog is very long dued.

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by : Huda

If your Lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?

Smile. Then walk off. I'm not a sadist. Besides, the only lover i can have is my own husband and by muslim law, he can't betray me. too bad! *sticks out tongue*!

If you can have a Dream to come true, what would it be?

To die while doing my pilgrimage:) or while saving's someone's life:))

What will your dream wedding to be like?

Wedding? Is wedding nikah? No...that's kahwin siti and no...its not encouraged to be done cos its a waste. sure, i'll invite everyone to come see my wedding in heaven, yeah? if they make it there first that is.

Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?

Maybe. I feel like buying chocolates now.

What's your ideal lover like?

Passionate. Understanding. Doesn't fart or sleep during the act? COMPLETE TURN OFF MAN!

Which is more blessed , loving someone or being loved by someone?

Loving lah. Why do you think i'm always so happy? I love so many people, even if they don't love me back, i don't mind cos the love i give is free:))

How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

Waiting? i don't know. How'd you know what you're feeling is really love or not?

If the person you secretly liked is already attached , what would you do?

Like is so subjective. umm...i dunno? Spy on him with Zue then realise i don't like him at all?

Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?

Unhappy? worked off lah. not unhappy. rarely i am so these days:P

Is being tagged fun?

Not when you're tagged and you can only reply it a month later at 1.35 am in the morning. sorry babe!

How do you see yourself in ten years time?

10 years ain't long. A job. A life. not that i don't have one now! ^.^

Who are currently most important people to you?

My family, Zue, Samba people, Some accounting people, Some fyrhto people, my boss cos i need my pay asap and she's not replying. *peep!peep!*

What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

She's GREAT? duh?

Would you rather to be a single & rich or married but poor?

i seriously dunno. i hate both options. something wrong with the rich part and married part.
what's all this talk about getting married and relationship? i think millions have been witness to my swear not to get married. now, i'm having doubts about all that i've ever stood up for. silly young me.

What's the first thing you do every morning?

Take wudhu' and do my morning prayers. Or if not, i'll not be waking up in the morning.

Would you give all in a relationship?

no idea. never once felt what's its like to have a relationship but i've been hurt too many times by people i really love, sometimes its hard to give the love away.

If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?

The one whom i can see myself waking up to every morning of my life. Imagine if he had ____? woosh...

What type of friends do you like?

Zue-type! haha! those i-can-laugh-till-i-roll-on-the-floor kind! FUN PEOPLE LAH! Compassionate people. And people who don't forget i exist. It'll be hard if they do:X

Do you have a pet?

Now? Awesomestrut and Saerelle. my neopets. they almost died the other day. i'm a bad owner:X

What type of friends do you dislike?

There's a type? really? i don't notice. shessh...

tagging: Zue, Hakim, Kak Norlin(btw, advanced Happy birthday to YOU!)

shut up! what?

K!!
i noe this is super late lah.

M&M CRU has

FINALLY UPLOADED THEIR DANCE!!

woooohooooo!!

altho i'm an ACDC fan, i'm not biased k?
M&M CRU WAS HAWT!! HAWT!! HAWT!!

we step our game up...what?!

btw, for those who are super slow, i'll do these super perfect dancers justice k?
i'll give u guys the links to the whole dance battle. starting frm the first challenge made by jon m. chu and adam sevani.

1st challenge:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=8a-FBSEFqcM

Shocking reply:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ngBLWZFTJ7E&feature=related

ACDC teaser:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2s2-4QDqU9g&feature=related

ACDC WOW RESPONSE:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=UA7dEWKAT7Y&feature=user

M&M teaser:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZvFf5ywinAQ&feature=related


Step Ur Game Up teaser by ACDC:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LsOW_CtPJ0o&feature=user

M&M reply:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qqof-W9nPas&feature=user

Then a stupid guy went to kpo:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=boKja_K2vSo&NR=1

THE LATEST HAWT M&M CRU RESPONSE:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=NECNIKmMgS8

k back to work. btw, i'll be back sunday. off to batam tmr yo!! hahax!

i have a new crush.
his name is adam sevani.
for those who don't know, go find out.
and i need to go learn the timing of americans cos we don't seem to live in the time frame.
the M&M video is not out yet. dumb.

i realised something just now.
zue and me; we're on the same boat.
go confused people.

btw, i see a huge similarity between hakim and adam.
weird? tell me about it.

and tmr's 2nd day of asrama, at the same time samba camp.
i'll be coming for both. yeah, tear my body into 2!
ouh, i got off for this whole week but it really looks like i need to put effort into doing my projects soon. haha!

and for those who don't know, this time of the year is the hot time for soccer.
euro babey!! wooohooo!!

k bye:)

hey. just came back from work. had dark mocha frap. damn nice. now i'm high:S
met a new girlfriend, liyana.
i swear i respect her like truckloads lah.
met david ang, new sales rep.
bernerd left jp already and david replaces him.
i swear he makes me think so much about life my head spins.

works been great & sian. everyone left. the part-timers lah. all dowan work already. wt...
last 2 days' rain sucked. i left a pool of water around my shoe as i left the mrt. wadya think?

i don't know what to do for the csa project.
i don't know when to do the pom and comm skills project.
i don't know why i need to do the econs project.

life screws you at the worst time.

i enjoy for the whole full week first lah k?
later i come back from batam then talk:)
in the mean time, i off to watch kungfu panda and soak my tired legs in warm water and eat my chocolates...

btw, don't miss me while i'm gone. sheesh>.>

updates

kk. i've missed you guys out on some of the best things in this world. (ehem..that's my life lah btw!) ~lol.

since i've not updated for close to a month i shall begin with what i remembered.

1) i got lots of projects, u name it i have it lah. from csa, to pom, to comm skills, to micro, to haizzz... alot lah. that's the reason everytime i want go blog, i can't. well besides that.

2) i have 4 ccas to begin with. i've droped drama, debate and now dikir. but the last day of dikir was kekek giler. everyone who was there knew. laughs about laughters. impersonification was the motion of the day. ate! ate! go dikir people!


then, i tot dikir was all about fun, but going for 2 weeks of dikir, not to mention that 1st day i went was the start of PT, i'm exhausted. and i quit not only because what dikir does conflicts with my values in life but also because after 2 weeks there, i can't fit in. the feeling was awkward and when people dikir-ed and i dunno the lyrics much less the tune, i felt so alone. so yah. anyways...

3) i joined a new cca. its actually a club lah. FA club a.k.a investment club i think. i dunno lah. i was otw home from doing project then suddenly ZY say he going for interview to join a club, with all his classmates. me being me, well, i was there in front of all the people and i kept saying,"highly subjective!" like, wat's wif dat man! lol siti! ouh, and when they asked me to intro myself, i said,"i'll describe myself with 2 alphabates, C.T" then everyone kept quite. suddenly 1 guy got it and laughed. and some wols ones were like... so yah. that's me btw!

4) elections days were last week. damn fun ah. u see banners everywhere and everyone at msn ask u vote for them. i voted for a lot of people and i realised i knew almost everyone on the voting screen. lol! those i voted for, they really deserve it. i hope they'll win! no...i'm not telling you who i voted for. sheesh... btw, it was my 1st time voting and the procedures to vote were so damn formal. its like taking a test lah...ok, lame:P *pfftt

5) ouh2!! MAN U WON! though i'm not really proud of them. how can u win by penalty? and wat if the chelsea captain didn't miss? i tell you ah. chris, YOU ARE OFFICIALLY NOT MY HERO ANYMORE. PERIOD. wth. and another disappointment in soccer is my own country. how the hell do you think you're gonna make it to world cup in 2010? 7-3 for bad-ness sake! k enough wallowing.

6) i bought cakes from itas. lots of it. i'm promoting here. you all must try the bluberry cheesecake and chocolate fudge cake. it's damn nice! like my bro say, hot!hot! HOT!!

7) i went malaysia the other day. and guess who did most of the shopping? my BRO! yes, not fair. i know!! later go batam, i'm gonna shop ah! though i still have np idea what i need. remember? i must PRIORITISE!

8) ouh. i haven't told you. i'm working today. yes, work. at suntec. 7pm. set-up. i don't even have time to celebrate lah. brenda called last tuesday night. so last minute! tell me about it...

9) huda's stories are damn nice. she's my cuzzie btw. go read it. it's at mibba:) and she's going to terengganu and melaka next week. good rite?

10) the bbq is officially cancelled. dunno lah. i really want it. but cik ida's going off this 12th. so fast lor. i'll miss her i swear.

11) mid-sems officially end today. it was tough. i've done my best. trust me, i studied like o's seh. slept at 3++ am every night since monday. barely sleep a wink then have to go school already. tests are all at 9! so yah. blame it on luck i guess.

12) i've been bad and skipping a lot of my ngaji classes. i shouldn't blame it on others. i'll make up for it next week. i swear. cos next week got asrama for 3 consecutive days at some cc. 10-4pm. so yah. i hope it'll be fun:) and insyallah, i'll come for all. still dunno how to break the 6 day off news to brenda however. 10-12 asrama. 12-15 batam. how? say you have school project to do. it's not lying:)

13) i'm going to do dieting like zue! i swear she's like a hot car model and she eats only 1 meal per day! wth kan? hahas! btw, zue, u're still beautiful even if u gain 20 kg! and i'm sure my dream will come true zue. and it better happen soon! wish*wish* that guy ah...he'll miss out on a lot of the finer things in life if he don't act soon ah.

14) btw, have u guys watched the ACDC v.s M&M Crew dance competition? for the wols-es, it's at youtube and IT'S DAMN HAWT!! this 10th the M&M gonna show their stuff but i bet ACDC will rise above all!! woohoo! anyways, its fun to watch, so if you guys have nothing to do watch ah. AND I LOVE MOOSE! ITS OFFICIAL>.<

boxed up

so yah. hello people.
i've a couple of apologies to make first and formost,
1) to the people who were affected by the damned viruses.
2) to my classmates and friends, i know i can be a bitch sometimes and my mood swings are damn wierd...i truly am sorry. i'm learning and working to be a better person each day.
3) to myself. i've denied you so much these few days. including the indulgence of sleep and chocolates and time to relax.

blaming no one. just a victim of time...

i'll be back this thursday to blog. :)

maybe i should break to you some good news before i leave. i know this is very anti-climax but...
1) i'm going to Batam for holiday!
2) i got 14.5/15 for CSA! damn proud lah!
3) i got 3 weeks supply of chewing gum the last time i went out of this country.
4) i've learn to balance wants and needs:)
5) i've learn to improve myself. YAY!
6) MAN U ROCKS MY ASS!
7) i've completed all assignments with the best of my efforts:P and i think its not substandard!
and lastly,
8) i've managed to make myself forget. even things which i don't think i could. and it wasn't under anyone's pressure! glad can?

peace people. and wish me lucks for my mid-sems. i wish to do well:)

happy2 days!!

so people:)

i'm happy. so happy i can light up the city of new york! *dush*dush*black eye>.O

these few days, i've learnt to take in what's good and ignore what's not.i've learnt, not to forget my problems, but make the problems settle themselves>.<

esp the part of my week where everyone keep sabotaging me. i take no offence. i kinda like being the outspoken, unshameful little piece of cutepie that i am!! (^.^)

i'll let the pictures do the talking:)

picture perfectlah katekan...
quality buffet food over at holiday inn hotel

happy mother's day mama!! ilyf!!

we rocked the house down... abg andy's house was on the 13th floor man!

and happy birthday little one:) you're cute. and i'm glad to be your doting aunty...hehe

and before i forget to tell you people. please wear red in honour of our win;))

yes! it was obvious right? Man U got the title again. ehem...for the 10th time. and giggs was the man of the match. nothing can be more perfect:))

so yah. i've had a great weekend:) last week wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. my life couldn't be any happier. oh before i forget, thanks mardiana for accompanying me throughout the whole week last week. it was much easier having you around. and thanks zue for the kekekness on fridays. it's bloody good fun! and to my class people, namely, libing, june, man ning, wei shan and jocelyn, don't worry alrites! we'll show one and all that we're strong as a team and we'll do well to end up in the top 1% of the cohort!! woots!

insyaallah!! amin! >.<

oh, i realised something last friday. the more i think of Allah, the lesser i feel the weight of the problems which i have to face each day. i thank you my god. for everything you've done for me. i love you Allah. a lot! just so you know:)