i hate this

this is a self-confession. if you do not agree to any of it, please don't tell me. i'm angry right now. so don't tell me what to do or what not to do. the source of my anger are these things:

1. my family is not going for holiday this year. i don't even know why. all the plans made earlier just seemed to crumble away before my very eyes.

2. i've wasted 1/3 of my holidays at home. not getting a job. not getting paid. because i thought we're going on a holiday. but we are not. see no. 1. i'm irritated. shut up.

3. people are always sending me messages about islam where it is stated, "you'll be rewarded for forwarding this message". i mean, wth ah. those human beings who started the chain mails are not god, who i must add, IS THE ONLY SOUL LIVING THING THAT CAN GIVE YOU PAHALA!! so stop acting like you're god already. and btw, that mails about meetings with Allah s.w.t or Muhammad s.a.w, is totally crappy and untrue. i'm not being a bad muslim, i'm being the best one. the people who think they did meet with them are crazy. computers only exist from the 21st century. Muhammad s.a.w died a long time ago. and people who met Allah s.w.t are serious hallucinating. its either that or they wouldn't have time to go on the net to send that letter coz they'll be busy praying for their lives.

4. i'm angry because many people i care for are getting hurt right now. and i can do nothing to help better their situation or even prevent them from being so. i feel useless. but hey, what can i say? i'm not Hiro Nakamura who can bend space and time. which i must say, the one person on Earth which Allah will have trouble controlling coz he truly think he can change the past, present and future. i mean come on, kun faya kun. for those who are not used to the term, it means, if its meant to happen, it will. no matter how much you try to change it.

5. my cousin got U grade for her emaths of the N-levels exams. now what am i going to do about that? nothing.

alrite. that's all. i'm tired of typing. and i feel better already. thanks.

6. look at me. i'm saying thank you to a machine. how impossible can i be? ARGHHH!!!