tears no more

so today was a damn fine day to cry your heart out.

and after silat prac seemed the most wonderful time.

bus stop was silently empty..

the clouds were creepily gloomy...

the songs were heartwrenchingly true...

and cos i just can't wait to get rid of all emotional baggage.

so i cried, while listening to ST12 Saat terakhir, on the bus stop opposite tp's street soccer court. which i must add was unnaturally empty. which gave me full leeway to let the dam down and pour out hurricane katrina, sweeping away all messages from my phone and at the same time, just releasing me from the invisible prison i've held myself in. all thanks to my dear bdae girl today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISYAH!! WOOTS!~ u dunno how much you've helped me tday. by doing wat u did, by sharing ur experiences, by giving me a piece of ur life...i was able to see my own in a new perspective. so here the last piece to abu: the last ferry has left. now you're stranded. ouh, btw, ive been there before. dun worry, you'll survive. bleahs~

and as i'm typing this i'm enjoying the final pieces of kuih layang2 and blueberry cheesecake which me and mum made on wednesday. dah habis ah! LICIN BEB!! sedapnyer tak leh angs! cos i made it and god noes how much i despise the hassles of the hell called kitchen. btw...i think chef ramsey is uber cool ah...k random! moving on...

THIS IS MY NEW ROOM! EXCLUSIVELY BROUGHT TO U BY CUDDLYCOOKIE!! hahas! lawa pe...from paper to wall. from sweat and fears to tears of joy.

and its becos of these new found friends(LOTS MORE TAKDE DLM GAMBAR!) and the new found passion in 2009, i'm blessed today. i've thrown away my helplessness and now i'm better, stronger...demi Allah, demi seni, ku teruskan lagi perjuangan ini. dengan harapan, duniaku, mindaku, jasadku tidak pudar ditelan masa, dicemuh manusia.

and last but not least...i miss zue and ain and huda truckloads.. meet up soon please? :))

p.s sorry 2r2 peeps for missing out tday. really wanted to go for the bbq. dah lame tak gi seh. and i miss u people like hell ah...but sometimes, life sucks that way. and to ma, ica really sorry. tak sengaje nak kecilkan hati mama. u noe what i said earlier...its ikhlas. really:)

p.p.s sorry if tdays entry damn mushy. pms coming ah. forgive the bluntness ah...>.<