i think i'm pms-ing. pffts!
anyways, i skipped the sl appreciation thingy coz i needed to go somewhere more important that i've neglected for quite abit. today i learned, dosa, once done, cannot be erased for the life of you, no matter whats the purpose behind it. it can only be covered up by having more pahala and with Allah's will, you won't go into the pits of hell, neraka jahanam, where it is said, just a drop of its fire is able to wipe out earth and everything within it. if "Hell Hath No Fury Like That Of A Woman's Wrath's", i can't imagine hari kiamat later, when the world itself can't accept you stepping on it, when all the anger of mothernature and life itself throws itself out upon you.
and then when i reached home, i watched "tak ada yang abadi" on RCTI. its a documentary kinda thing about this guy, who stole his siblings inheritance for himself to gamble away, etc... and in doing so, pushed his mum to her death. he had 4 younger siblings. now, after he has repented and found light, after he lost his left leg from a freak accident, due to karma and dolat from his late mum, he seeks forgiveness from all his siblings. and seriously, when i first watched him going to his 2nd sis home and her reaction towards him which were full of hate and contempt cos he made her life suffer as she was now, i was like, "like who would forgive him? i would most prob do the same." then my wise young bro spoke up, "what have you got to lose by giving forgiveness?"
and then when i reached home, i watched "tak ada yang abadi" on RCTI. its a documentary kinda thing about this guy, who stole his siblings inheritance for himself to gamble away, etc... and in doing so, pushed his mum to her death. he had 4 younger siblings. now, after he has repented and found light, after he lost his left leg from a freak accident, due to karma and dolat from his late mum, he seeks forgiveness from all his siblings. and seriously, when i first watched him going to his 2nd sis home and her reaction towards him which were full of hate and contempt cos he made her life suffer as she was now, i was like, "like who would forgive him? i would most prob do the same." then my wise young bro spoke up, "what have you got to lose by giving forgiveness?"
cut long story short, the story thought me: i should cherish what i have now, for once you do lose the trust and love that you have now, nothing you ever do can undo the past mistakes. all you can try doing is cover up those cuts you have created but no cut would ever be gone without a scar and that is exactly my point.
to whomever it may concern, (kalau terase tu salah diri sendiri)
i didn't do whatever was accused of me. going around ruining my name serve to only hurt you later:
i didn't do whatever was accused of me. going around ruining my name serve to only hurt you later:
1) cos i will know and i can never trust you again. ive learn a hard lesson today, forgiveness should be given sincerely at every opportunity cos you'll never live your life fully if you keep hanging on to grudges and hate.
2) cos people will hate you once the truth is out and it won't take long
3) cos no one but Allah noes you best and only Allah noe ur intentions of doing so
*P.S: if you're jealous of the life i'm having, try finding a better role model beside yourself, cos believe or not, you're not the GREAT person you think you are. kau ingat kepale kau banyak besar pe? kalau kau bagus sangat, you won't be in the pathetic situation you are now ass.
and for now, i'm letting it go. watch it rise and join E.T;)
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