facts about HIM

realise my title. it wrote facts. i mean it.

1. he doesn't know i exist.
2. he is all i think about even with hot guys around me.
3. i miss him every moment of the day.
4. my heart skips 3 beats everytime i get a glance of him.
5. i can look at him all day, all months, all years, all centurions and will still feel like i've not looked at him enough.
6. the thought of him stir up so many emotions i could not describe. i feel scared, angry, sad, happy, confuse and something else i couldn't understand.
7. i would sacrifice getting hurt just so i could feel what it is like to be loved by him for a moment.
8. i would not cry when he gets attached to someone else for i know he would be happy and i will be happy for him although i know i'd die inside.
9. i don't think i hate this obsession. it's just new. although i've felt it since last year.
10. i think i love him. a lot. enough to let him go. enough to let him seek a wonderful, beautiful world without my presence.

a ring with no meaning

time and again i've been shot
yet this time, cupid has got me caught
his arrow was all gold, shining and proud
yet it was broken, bleeded with blood

i was tainted with a lover's soul
to give without expectations
to let go even when it'll slice your very soul
to love if only to get hurt

now that i've learn to love
to give my heart, my soul
my spirit is soaring to limits so far
only to be condemned with ignorance by my arrow's heart

thou shall love with no guard
the everlasting curse of love without a doubt

i'm constantly bruised by painful thoughts

the thought of loving with no lover
the thought of giving to no receiver
the thought of knowing no ever after...