realisation

sometimes in life, there's this point where you realise small little things bout yourself that throughout the whole almost 18 years of your life, you have never noticed before? well...

do you noe?

• I like putting my legs up on the chair when i sit. depending on the size of the chair, i either sit on my left leg or cross both my legs under me on the sofa.
  
• I shake my legs a lot. especially during lectures, where my lecture partner will consciously ask me to stop cos their chair is shaking too. LOL!~
• I always use my hp to check the time. even when im using a watch. stupid, i noe~
• i say anyways, so yah, you noe and *ahump(a breath of air) like a gazzillion times a day. the *ahump is very obvious everytime i tell a joke or trying to stop myself from laughing. heh~
• i care a lot about what my family thinks of me. i say i don't care about what others think rite...but inside, their opinions of me matters a lot. so much so, it hurts.
• i like black metal. not that kinda music genre but metal, black in shade. notice i use shade cos black, white, brown & beige are not colours=)

k dah. i realise i only have 3 wishes for my 18th bdae dis year and i can't get any of them. not at this rate anyway. wanna noe the 3 wishes? really? hehehehehs....

1. bike license. (mum said, in translation, "not over my dead body")
2. a pet, preferably a kitten. (dad said, "for what? your room's already breeding cockroaches, lizards and it looks like a pigsty, not enough?)
3. my 1st boyfriend. no more stalkers, jerks & heart breakers please? (but my brain says no to this. cos it understands chemistry and physics better & it says, you're no where close to ground. MAYDAY! MAYDAY!)

so yah~ here i go again.... lets find some other reasonable gifts which has no sentiment value cos my family is too blind to see that i'm hurting with every rejection they happily throw in my face.