disappointment

sometimes
life is like looking at a flower
we see so much of God's beauty concentrated into 1 small pretty little thing

but we tend to forget about other nasty things
and when we do remember those
we forget the flower.

now withered.

the month of peace

suddenly i find ramadhan is here again

so fast
did u feel time pass that fast? faster than the speeding airforce. ZOOMMMM!

so tonight's, the terawih will start.
tonight will mark the middle of the ghost month.
tonight will mark the end of my first exam, law.

so fast
did you feel the many events, week after week
it all ends too fast
memories lingers
i still remember the time when we hang the curtains that is still in my room, unchanged.
heck, i still remember the time when my brothers and me fought to play the bulky gameboy.
i still remember buying the black roll of film to put inside that old camera.
and i most certainly still remember grandmama taking care of me and bro at my home, this house, 18 years ago.
can't believe this house has been the roots of my being for all time. its been 20 years already? wow~


kk im letting memories flood me now. it's not gonna stop so im pouring some for you. imagine my life through my eyes.

remember the time we ran away from home, without telling anyone, just leaving with that stupid small bag. hahahs. i still remember what i put in that bag man. then i remember running and being brought back home. gosh! i didn't even make it as far as grandmama's home. hahahs! kiddy me man.

remember the time when we had the first puff. gosh it was bad. although it was mint-flavoured. ewwww~ and remember the first spar? gosh that was fun. hahhas.... well, not really ah. considering i almost died. no, wasn't fun at all. then we'll remember the legal spar virginity break at silat just a couple of weeks back. k, THAT WAS AWESOME>.< hhahahs. never took so much effort JUST TO BREATHE MAN! woooo~~

remember the times at art space, with samba people, the whole lot, ain and farah and nugget and everyone, happy, no politics. remember the joined forces of samba and salvo? it was refreshing man. the ideas and the funny parts. heh~

remember the morning walks, from CC to Whitesands, pick up the free goodies, and passing thru the wet market every 1st sunday of each month. how long have the tradition lingered man... since last 2 years? man that was unexpectedly long....

remember getting lost at little india? after going for the young minds mendaki idiotic thing at the BMC learning centre, near cathay? stupid lor. i was sec 1 tt time. was so excited to go then i got lost when getting home. that time, dad still had the red suzuki bike. miss bikey alot~~!!!!

remember getting lost taking 23 from the wrong side, the first day of school at TP? i still remember, i was supposed to meet kak norls at tamp inter. end up meeting her 1.25hrs later at pasir ris. hahahahhs!!! joke sia that one. and guess where i drop off when i took 23? little india! the first place i ever got lost. funny sia. sesat je kat sane. hhahahs!

remember going to the different army camps, despite rain or shine? for ndp pracs? but in the end, the efforts there were kinda screwed. those times we ate at jalan kayu after pracs? those were times i'll remember as the LOL moments. love them man. the whole lot.

remember the times when we spend emoing ourselves? during depressing sec sch? failing everything, every subject? to the worst kinda grades; while being in the 1st class taking triple? woah~

remember the stupid crushes and infatuations? to teachers and students alike? hahahhs! i still remember having a crush on mr lai sia! until i found out his WIFE pregnant ALD! hahhaahhs!

remember going out every sunday? i dun even remember do what seh. if i can recall some k..
1) went for the cultural tour, it was free sia. went to little india temple, the Buddha tooth relic temple, the mosque near bugis(not masjid sultan k) and some other places.
2) went for jem's sunday walks.
3) went to mount faber. the loooonnnngggg walk. but the ending was nice ah. got lotsa of flowers!
4) went for my CC's ricewalk. considering i have ald done it, missing the one at TP isn't so bad.
4) went for family days. went swimming to so many places! downtown WWW, the many swimming complexes with slides! fun sia=D
5) went to so many people's wedding! hehes. MAKAN FREEE!!
6) dis weekend i just went for the GEMPAR LAGI high-tea. makan free lagik! hahs. it was kinda fun. k minus the part i hate this one indonesian artist, who is super effing BITCH! & its a he btw. ZZZZ! i think his name is rezky, but the host kept on saying REZEKI! hahahs! i think the other guy, wisnu i think, is so much more handsome ah. based on looks and attitude. but im biased against people with awesome attitude. hahahs.
7) went hanging out wif AWESOME FREAKASS! kk lah, my besties. but among all, i miss ain the most seh. i want POPS! soon please? =)

k lah. enough reminiscing. though it was fun rite? hahahs. kk back to reality. time to study. im gonna do FINANCE<33!! =DD

btw, to all friends and foes alike, gd luck for ur exams and for ur life while im not blogging or online. CAMAT PUASE YE!! >.<

BooM !

allow me to update juz a bit on life kays.

i noe so many people dying to noe.

so yah. bloco NDP as ended but weekends are still packed for me.

btw, the day was awesome kay. i want upload pics, 500+ & still counting but FB has been effed up these few weeks so yah i dunno when i gonna do it anymore. but i'll keep trying ah.

heh!~ guess wat. it's all over. no more eyecandies for me. no more non-stop giggles over bloco-rians stupidity and no more practices after school. there isn't even school anymore. yeap, last day tday. woke up early, went 9 am lect, skipped my last CAS tut cos i forgot and then i dunno my results now~ ass! went final biz finance and was super pissed that my class was crashed and the first thing i said, "cher change class". i was thinking about others first. like wt~ i was the one without seat and i had to think bout others. typical siti. ouh yah! end off the day wif a bang; met alfiah!! woots! and went to kampong glam for raye light up. well, i need to rep my kelompok wat and besides, when im at geylang tmr for the light up i wont be able to become audience. ZZZ=D

i missed the rice walk thing, went for awesome silat training, well, i skipped part of the running cos stomach was wicked, but then, it was still awesome cos for the 1st time ever, I'vE BrOkeN mY SpArRinG vViRgiNity! hell yeah!~

my 50% course grades for all subjects are below B. * wow! shocking rite. all C and below. and next friday is my first exam paper ald. LEGAL! great~ *that was sarcastic btw.

k lah i dowan be so negative. so the positives now. i got A for PHOTOG!!! like`HONOURED NYE!!' just so u noe, my cher asked me send her my design rational and the actual photos cos she say, "its a very good example" WOAHHH!~~ eh kembang eh! k more positive. i've made many2 friends. new ones in school, nur ikhwan ppl and most surprisingly, from my weekend events. ade jeeeee~ none stop seh. i dun even noe when im going to be able to put off ANY of my weekends just to sleep. miss afternoon naps like shit. miss being at home anytime before 10 during weekends. miss being home. alot! sometimes, when i look back, i realise so much time has been spent outside seh. just to name some of the events i've gone to for the whole year would make my head spin. i can't differentiate one weekend from another, cos every week same routine. off early morn, back late at nite. hahs.

but im enjoying life lah. Allah's been nice. really. my life is BALANCE. content. full. complete. thanks to all who makes it so. even those not around me like ain sis. she's always here in my heart. just like alfiah and fanah and huda. miss huda loads seh. and tmr's another kenduri im gonna miss. and another ASAD prac missed. it's the last one btw. wt~

k lah. final thoughts for tday, bloco was great. jem girls were fun for the parts when they were actually there. other non-performing bloco-rians were awesome photo junkies. tell u ah. all my friends SUPER PHOTOGRAPHIC! tts y i prefer taking their photo then my own;) and im not pretty at all so yah~ skin improving since last 3 months but it has a bad scar now. the scar that will only be covered up by my ear-to-ear "nadiah's mega watt smile" and laugh. how ironic.ZZ!