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hey you guys.
i'm sad. i think i'm going to go into depression soon.
suddenly the thought of jumping off tp library's 11th storey don't seem so bad.

i've just been hit again.
twice in a row. hope today won't be another. i don't like hat-tricks of pain. especially since its my own. first tpsu then the supposed lecture clique. i hate confrontations. sometimes i wish i could just be oblivious to everthing that surrounds me. my life sucks. i think people who don't know me thinks i'm pathetic with the way i live. i don't mind really. cos usually what u see is what u get rite? wrong. next time, know me first. don't judge me. don't say things you think i am. cos u don't know the damage you're doing. in the future, stuff don't usually work out. yesterday was one of the worse days. notice, worse not worst. it hasn't reach that point yet. cos my inner body won't allow it. me has not broken down yet. she's the strongest one among all of us. she supports myself and i when we're bleeding to death crying out the pain. but her cries is one you'll not hear nor see. her cries are to Allah. only Allah knows.

that said and done, mid sems are next week. after hari raya haji. and i don't think my family will be going to the sacrifise this year though its like the tradition of our family. anyways, we'll see how it goes. my econs is fully covered already. and bus stats oso. i doing notes for econs only. and maybe mbs. but mbs and fa alot to cover and practice. and i still have ob. shessh. lucky my freehand drawing is like covered ald lah. no exams and i've been getting A grades and 1 B+ cos its painting. and i suck at painting. hahahs.

k lah. i need to buy my younger bro's books now. and lots of grocery shopping to do. and revision too. hope its a better day today. i oni have ob tutorial at 4. wt...