i'm not weak emotionally kay?

Your EQ is 133

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges. You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others. While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up. But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

honestly i'm happy with the results:) check it out. maybe u'll realise something bout yourself like i did!!

my soul confessions

a heart beats within me
whispering secrets of my soul
giving little peeks of my life

only this heart
has too many scars
too many cuts

only this heart
has nothing to guard
has nothing to hide

i confess my life, my soul
to this very heart

which pumps life into my whole
bleeding as it serves to let me live

my confessions are forever unknown
unless my life turns to stone

then my heart is dead; left alone

to be discovered; drained and thrown

every story revealed
every lie
every breathe

my humiliations, my desperations
my errors, my horrors
my passion, my obsession
my insecurities, my vulnerabilities
my defiance, my violence
my jubilation, my contentments

i just realised i haven't post my soul confessions yet.

so here it is. as a tribute to my emo brothers who won't stop being emo and singing their lungs out, to very, very emo songs even i don't know of, during these few heavily rainy days. no wonder the rain won't stop:X

i QUIT!! :D

i didn't know i haven't updated for so long. 10 days. but life's been fun for me. beside the fact that huda already went off to australia:( so bloody unfair....but anything whatever siti!! where did i last left off?

so yah. went for my last week of work at suntec convention centre and courts. felt really sad leaving everyone behind. trust me, the work is tough but leaving the tough work where you've learnt so much of life from is even tougher. as if that made sense:X thanks to all, especially miao miao and hui hui who had thought me to laugh like never before and also to use emoticons more often:))

so a whole bunch of things to do for me even though work time is officially over. need to go health checkup, exercise, print and photocopy a dozen things, take photo to paste on the bloodily evil forms and fill up so many forms...sigh...

see how the miss snake stares at the camera and wound its entire body around my small little neck? ummm....

after fruit farm its off to shopping spree at mini kelantan and jusco. then go home. end of one day trip. maybe i should tell you something. ali anugerah was on the trip oso. he caused us to depart late coz he woke up late. but he made us all laugh so hard i feel i had just ran 10 hours non-stop after the performance he did for us during our buffet lunch at the fruit farm. i'll try upload up a clip:)

and today. slept in. after yesterday, who wouldn't? woke up feeling dizzy. then suddenly thought of huda coz i saw the nbc cushion i bought for her yesterday. imy huda! come back soon please?

plan to meet jp friends for shopping trip at bugis. turns out so many couldn't come. and i miss a family outing today. how sad. i heard they went to try out the lrt. urgh!~ nevermind. but i also had a load of fun with hui hui and miao miao:))
despite the rain, we still went shopping. and boy was it fun. met yus and wei ting while shopping for studs. imagine me wearing studs. its funny but i bought 2 of it. i thought it was pretty:D then bought a grey coloured skinny:)) it was so comfy i felt like wearing it on the spot! also bought a long cut cardigan. 10 BUCKS ONI! LOVES:) then went to bugis junction to eat. tot of going to pastamania then the guy there said it's oni half halal. i was like wth? can don't play with this kind of things not? it's about what i put into my bloodstream you know! jerk! end up going to the food junction upstairs. and guess who we saw at the jp counter? CHRIS!! hahahahas. he was so funny mending a counter coz usually we see him at fairs only. hehe:) went to eat. my plate of food cost me more than a full hour of work. 7 dollars sehs. haixxx.. bought bubble tea while hui hui and miao miao finished their food and along the way i saw a bunch of adolescence trying to act cool. notice the word "act". dumb kids:X back to the story, after bbbbuuubblleess...we went to...KINOKUNIYA!! i swear its the best place to get good books:) i bought another book. then we went home. took a bloody long no.12 bus ride home. guess how long was the trip home? 1 and a half hour. stupid bus. stupid me. nevertheless, i caught lots of zzzzss on the bus and now i'm blogging ang uploading a million things.

the video as promised:)

time check. 4.15am. i must really be crazy. either that or i'm really taking things slow. i took 3 hours to type this up:) lols. see you tomorrow>.<

STMXXXXL~short-term memory extra loss

firstly. sorry huda for not making a special blog in lieu of your birthday. honestly speaking, i forgot all about it.

secondly, sorry to mum and bros and all who was affected because of me today. as i said so many times before, i have short-term memory loss. i really didn't mean to do it. i guess under the circumstances, you can't blame me too. how were we supposed to go to an open-air scavenger's hunt when it was heavily pouring outside?

thirdly, to hakim. i don't know if you know what i know you don't want to know but i know i want you to know what i hope you know everytime i know you know that i just know. to people who understands, please don't tell others for then it won't be our little secret anymore now wouldn't it?

now where was i? oh!

to mas selamat. please stop playing hide and seek already. if you are already out of singapore just tell people that you are and stop causing all this chaos here when people think that you are where you are not. IT'S NOT FUNNY ANYMORE! THE JOKE IS OVER! to think that you could receive the privilliege of being wanted dead or alive! huh!

so today. cancelled outing to sungai rd and to mcs for big breakfast. i even cancelled the morning jog! urgh! stupid rain. but in a way it was wonderful as today is the first time in many months i get to sleep in a it's raining outside:) heaven. truly. then rushed out in the afternoon to meet huda and her bestie to go to bugis to shop. well, for me it was actually called window shopping. but anyways, guess who i met along the way? yes, i saw him again. who u ask? well, if it isn't our mr. hot guy. urgh! to think i could be so affected by a member of the opposite sex. i'm not sexist. i'm just not inclined to having any personal affections to them (save for my family and friends tt is). anyways, i realised i've never talked to him once since i've added him in my contact list. i have this bloody feeling he would probably have deleted me from his contact list anyway. too bad siti. he's probably not meant for you. they say a girl's heart can be captured again and again and a guy's, once caught, it'll last his lifetime. so nevermind about me. just go on with your life. and to syad, aka bob, thanks a lot. what ever you said just snapped me out of it. i will not try what you suggested not because i don't have the courage but because i don't have the strenght to rebound from a rejection. it'll just be too much. so....

moving on. i guess that's it. oh! i've been listening toa song called timeless sang as a duet by kelly clarkson and justin guarini. they truly have the chemistry and they sound really good together:))