150th post

i've been waiting for this moment to come. the moment when everything just goes silent for that 1 moment. let me just bask in the moment for a bit.

K BREAK'S OVER!
damn.

and the coughing resumes. and the pain in the chest affects the eyes and the brain and now the whole's face screwed up again. and the cramp in the right leg starts screaming its present again. nowadays, im always falling sick. dun even noe why. maybe its my biological clock ticking its way thru my hectic lifestyle. and because of it, ive been taking time off to sleep and rest when im supposed to complete that tonne-assed tutorials and cas project of mine. i've been procrastinating, just in case you haven't notice it yet. hold everything back. everything. including my spices of crushes and eyecandies. i just dont have that liberty called time anymore. like everyday, which starts at 12am btw, i spend it by eating belated medication and eating, cos i dun eat most days now. me+no food=disaster. i've been trying to cut down but i dun tink its working. cos instead of feeling better and healthier, i feel deathly-old-maid sick. like i have wrinkled up face and fingers and all that crap. so unfortunate dun u tink? i have a life outside, which takes everything off of me. i have practices of silat and bloco percussions everyday of the week except thursdays and sundays, where those days would then be taken up by either sleeping my tired ass off or going out with the family for outings and religious lessons. well, now that i've mentioned that, religious lessons have been cut. cos of H1N1 or so i heard. like wt... and i hate it when the country is fearing what they can't see but they're not scared of god. like what are u, sick? go away...far, far away.

i missed those days when i'm free and not tired. so i can have time to finish the projects and ideation art pieces and the finance and cma and pca tuts. i also miss those days when there's nothing hounding me at the back of my brains gnawing at the ends of my brain cells just so it could get some attention.

and just so you know, i've been skipping lessons. and bloco pracs. just so i could spare that little bit of time for my body to recover and also finish up the things held at dateline. i so can't wait for this saturday. cos it'll be the first saturday, i dun have to think about any projects dued coz all projects are coming to an end this friday. well, besides ideation that is. but thats my passion so i dun consider it a project. and when all of this is over, i'll have hell to pay with all the undone tuts i've skipped. confirm results rabak giler punye. confirm mak bapak aku tak kasi join ape2 lagi punye. and i'll feel sad. super empty. cos i'm so used to the life without free time.

everytime someone ask me what i do in my free time, my answer is: sleep/eat/do art projects. which i must say, is essentials. not a free-time activity. i'm so tired now of typing. i'll update again once i feel better.

P.S: i've been sick for 3 weeks now. all who noe me should noe. and the tuts i've held back, its amounting to 4 weeks worth of 5 diff subjects tuts. thats 20 weeks worth of catching up to do. and if that's not bad enough, last sat bloco was spent under heavily pouring rain. u should see the news man. and i was sick+heavy rain+no food=X.X ouh, btw, this thurs is my first silat performance at ilive at tp. that's y i havent been skipping silat. and i think, though this might be like the worst timing to do so, i'm having an infatuation. and 2 other eye-candies from bloco. and all of them, are SO DIFF FROM EACH OTHER!! just so u noe, the infatuation is on a bad boy. and the eye-candies, are like cute and emo. one thing's for sure tho, they all have attitude and awesome personalities, something which always catch my eye first. im not really into the looks you know. just wanna have someone to make me laugh and giggle no matter how indirectly. that's what all of this is for right? a lil bit of spice. and surely, something, WHICH I DUN NEED RIGHT NOW! oh emmm geee.... distractions sia! damn!