WOO-SUNK!!~

i dunno why, but i love the title of this post.
i'll repeat what johan said, "the !! represents our excitedness and hyperness, and the ~ shows that Woosunk will continue on to week zero and forever."

SL Camp 08/09 was a huge roller coaster ride for me. i got to know another side of me. the girl who's honoured to be able to live through the past 3 days with such wonderfully great people. and everyone who knows me know i have no care for anything but awesome personalities. like i've said before, u guys awesome ah... really. then the video of the camp...it was just soul-wrenchingly touching. still can't believe i cried. the power of a camp and great awesome shots. aftermath of a great camp=) i dunno how to describe the feelings ah. its like foc, maybe the games were less interesting and need to achieve something weren't so much a pressure, but that what make the camp so wonderful. to me at least. and the company...like what bangla said, "i wouldn't trade u guys for anyone else..." k i going cry again ald. and its only my 1st year. i dun think i can bear to part when im in year 3. *dies... and to jessy, ur just great. too many adjectives to describe u but u're one of a kind. come back tp when u grad ald k?

pics are up on facebook. most of it ah. but the most fun of it werent captured on frame, it in my memory and heart. love woosunk alot alot alot please?

ouh im proud to say, in 3 days, ive slept only a mere 4 hours. from monday morning eh please, the night before camp. and that's not to mention the hectic weekend.

and to ain. thanks for always being there. i love you. and for ur problems, ill help u carry the weight. like i said, well just see the flow. and im hoping ull be happy and laughing through whatever life puts u through like i noe u will=)) and to mr. s, cepat lah sikit. melepas nanti baru tau. my sister yang satu ni hot demand seh! wakakakas=)) but oni some can see the jewel she really is. AND DUN BE LIKE "SOME" JERKS I NOE, who claim to see the preciousness of someone, then throw whatever he "thought" he saw earlier right back into my girls faces. ALLAH WILL HAVE U FOR IT> not cos i wont do anything bout it, but i prefer karma to work her own ways round the world. the world's dying babes. seriously.

and to kak ilah, i noe im not suppose to say anything but ill express it here. cos no one read this blog anyways... i swear on my oath not to mention anything else to anyone else. so to cuddlycookie, i HATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATE!! JERKS. and its so true what ive always said. it only enforces the truth of it. guys are either jerks or gays. ull get back what u deserve ah seriously. go read my OLD POST! k dah.

k i wanna go eat. hungry sia. since yesterday lunch at camp which was at 1+ i think. balik camp dah penat sangat tak ingat nak makan. bagus pe. hahahas. i can remember to go facebook but forgot to eat. awesome ah! wakakakaks!

tears no more

so today was a damn fine day to cry your heart out.

and after silat prac seemed the most wonderful time.

bus stop was silently empty..

the clouds were creepily gloomy...

the songs were heartwrenchingly true...

and cos i just can't wait to get rid of all emotional baggage.

so i cried, while listening to ST12 Saat terakhir, on the bus stop opposite tp's street soccer court. which i must add was unnaturally empty. which gave me full leeway to let the dam down and pour out hurricane katrina, sweeping away all messages from my phone and at the same time, just releasing me from the invisible prison i've held myself in. all thanks to my dear bdae girl today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISYAH!! WOOTS!~ u dunno how much you've helped me tday. by doing wat u did, by sharing ur experiences, by giving me a piece of ur life...i was able to see my own in a new perspective. so here the last piece to abu: the last ferry has left. now you're stranded. ouh, btw, ive been there before. dun worry, you'll survive. bleahs~

and as i'm typing this i'm enjoying the final pieces of kuih layang2 and blueberry cheesecake which me and mum made on wednesday. dah habis ah! LICIN BEB!! sedapnyer tak leh angs! cos i made it and god noes how much i despise the hassles of the hell called kitchen. btw...i think chef ramsey is uber cool ah...k random! moving on...

THIS IS MY NEW ROOM! EXCLUSIVELY BROUGHT TO U BY CUDDLYCOOKIE!! hahas! lawa pe...from paper to wall. from sweat and fears to tears of joy.

and its becos of these new found friends(LOTS MORE TAKDE DLM GAMBAR!) and the new found passion in 2009, i'm blessed today. i've thrown away my helplessness and now i'm better, stronger...demi Allah, demi seni, ku teruskan lagi perjuangan ini. dengan harapan, duniaku, mindaku, jasadku tidak pudar ditelan masa, dicemuh manusia.

and last but not least...i miss zue and ain and huda truckloads.. meet up soon please? :))

p.s sorry 2r2 peeps for missing out tday. really wanted to go for the bbq. dah lame tak gi seh. and i miss u people like hell ah...but sometimes, life sucks that way. and to ma, ica really sorry. tak sengaje nak kecilkan hati mama. u noe what i said earlier...its ikhlas. really:)

p.p.s sorry if tdays entry damn mushy. pms coming ah. forgive the bluntness ah...>.<

the nerve of some people

1) i dun understand adults and dun wish to be like those i've been acquainted with recently.
wat makes you think the world will respect you after what you did? like seriously come on. only the few of us went...tak yah heboh satu kampong ah! wt... btw...you're the biggest jerk around. you should look and see. maybe next time you say things like this, people will stare and you and you'll feel like the worst of asses around. ajkh lah eh...

2) i dun understand how people at the age of 22 can be so dumb and desperate. like come on, the whole world has yet to be explored lah. tie urself up in this dodol/sticky situation for what?

3) i dun understand the NERVE of SOME PEOPLE. like seriously...dah takde kerje, jangan cari pasal lah can? and i can't believe how evil "muslim" ppl can really be.
3 words: GO TO HELL!

die evil ppl! DIE!! ouh wait...maybe u shud live until hari kiamat then die. cos i want u to suffer.

k byes! sleep early yeah. and pee in the morning. avoid cancer. k dman random! bahahahhas!

PICS!! hahahas

eh k. ahhh... pics as promised. mostly from other's cams. ajkh to vina, suhailah rauf and kak lala for the awesome pics:)) best giler ah u all! nanti kite gi lagi ah... hahahas!

ouh btw, patch test is damn irritating please. an experience i will NOT!! ever want to go through again. eeee... hahahs!

they say no pain no gain. hahs. blisters all over. too bad my foot isn't made of rubber or something. hahas!

TEPUK TEPUK TEPUK!!

woots! k so anti-climax. wakakakas!

BUT TODAY WAS GEREKNESS TO THE CORE! k fine yesterday. but i'm blogging now and i haven't slept for today so yah its today. merepeks aje. So ANYWAYS...

I SO BLOODY PROUD OF ASAD SINGAPURA! tak kisah ah kite nye perf paling short&sweet or that got a teeny error of miscomm and technicalities...

this is one event i will forever remember. cos despite abu leaving, i think this experience has just made my love for ASAD bloom like mushrooms after rain. and all my desperations and heartache and pain just disappeared like the bubbles on a speedy boat trail. and though i suffered like stupid blisters and bloodclots on my foot after the whole day, today was FUUUHH! hahs.

i swear the company was just awesome. kak ilahs (both) hahas, vina, ida, shukry stupid long hair, naim, hakim, taufik, aizat, ary, cik madihah, cik azman, cik hamzah... great seh. pics on kak lala's bloggie. i dun think i'll be posting ah. not now. malas nak mampos. penat gilers.

tmr patch test at 9!! craps. no bathing for 2 days. gilers!! k ah. next post i put pics. asik words aje boring seh. mcm tadi nyer perfs, those b4 us. cos they kept using the same ting-tong-ting-tong tone from the gamelan and tabla. &&!! DAMN IRRITATING HOST> *pfft!! just shut up and let ppl perf in peace and no noise lah eh. && WHOEVER WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR PERF CROP UP (*the dangdut song at the beg and starting our song so soft sampai tak dengar), U WATCH OUT!! i kill u! wakakakakaks!

k dah. byes! ;DD

another one of those days

& i hated today.
whenever i think about bad stuff, the negative aura can be felt by others.
which makes the situation worse.
and then there were the awkward moments.

not that i'm comparing here but gelanggang admiralty would be uber weird once aizat become the full-time teacher. niari baru first lesson dier ajar, aku dah takleh angs. rabaks giler. i was SO BLOODY BORED I FELT LIKE JOINING THE GUYS TRAIN FOR TMR! like wt... abih yang lagi teruknye news: ABU NO LONGER TEACHING GELANGGANG. period. takde angin, takde ribut.

here's for you abu:

you were the source of my inspiration
build up these new passion i have for a new kind of art
gave me the want and need for knowledge
piled up encouragements when i fail

and now you're leaving
good job
wonderful
really.
i wish you well in whatever you do, where ever you may be, when ever it is.

aku sebenarnye sekarang ni geram. sedih. marah. kecewe. hampe. semue perasaan yang negative. macam nak meletup ah sekarang. dah takleh take it sak. kepale otak aku sekarang ni berserabut giler. abih confirm tak leh tido nye nanti. besok sebelum subuh dah nak kene siap go batam. nak mampos sak...
u make me wanna hurt you, strangle you, cry over you, slap you silly, hug you tight then hold you close.

i need to let it out. k going ngaji. then solat tahajud. then hopefully tears will fall. cos rite now, i dunno what to think, or feel, or know anymore.

sorry. bad post. i'll post when i'm happy next time. hopefully i won't die in batam yeah? :P

BOO!~

i having a severely depressing day. woke up to my mum's nagging and juhana's message that today NO GYM! :( boo!

and today need to rush from samba cos got briefing at gelanggang for this sat. :(( double boo!

and the MOST DEPRESSING IS THIS SMS I GOT. from 74688. yes it's my results. and i have this depressing feeling that i'm gonna have to take supp. cos i got D+ for FA2. i think that's a fail. and the other subjects which i had hoped will help pull up my GPA didn't do their job. got a BLOODY B FOR OB!! FROM HIGH SCORING A!! wt.. and MBS GOT C!! so pissed! and my freehand drawing GOT B+!! B+ LEH!! MY HOPES ARE LIKE CRUSHED! cos i'm supposedly the only student who had never missed any lesson and NOW I GOT A B+. when i've been scoring As for most of my artworks. SO BLOODY ANGRY LAH!! BOOO!!!~~

and TP WEBBIE IS SUPER LAGGIE! don't cross my way today. cos i'll be as black as the sky right now! ~CRAPS!~ dis is SO NOT ME!! waaaaa:'(((

fairytale endings

okay so if u noe me, u knew tday was a damn hectic day for me. and you would oso noe the title up there describes everything about tday.

so we went off at 7.30 in order to be among the first in line for dental. and considering i have to get down to woodlands from outram, which i must say is among the most frustrating journey ever!!, for the 11 am RP AND TP SILAT FRIENDLY!!! (*CLAPS AND CHEERS DAMN LOUD!), me being that kiasu is normal. hahahs!! and guess wat, i damn happy at the clinic. so i change my words, outram dental isn't all that bad. if u go damn early and have no porblems at all. huahuahua!! so doc said besides the regular scraping i need nothing else! NOT EVEN A POLISH!! she said my teeth were in great condition:) only that was enough to make my day! but as ALLAH WOULD LOVE FOR ME TO HAVE IT, the rest of the day was like a never ending fairytale for me... everything was perfect. well at least in my eyes. i didn't see the dark clouds above me, nor see or feel the pain in my legs, well except for during ASAD but nevermind bout that part...hehes!

guess wat happened...to make me this happy?

1) MY 1ST OFFICIAL SILAT MATCH WAS IN RP!! no matter that i was only a supporter, i love the fun and laughters i had. and RP is the only poly i had never been in. AND I DIN GET LOST THERE! alhamdullilah!!

2) ASAD was like FUYOH UBER GREAT! and kak suhailah CAME!! hilang seh rindu! ;) and when i saw my clique in full force, and all the kids laughs and all the guru's awesomeness, and how i din cry at getting cramps and survive all of it, i just have to say: WA CAYA SAME LU BEB!

3) i came home feeling hungry and guess wat i saw on the door when i reach home, PIZZA DELIVERY MAN!! like WAT!!! this day can't get any better rite?

4) the GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY FOR ME TO ASK DAD IZIN TO GO BATAM! and i think all of u should noe the answer rite? YES! YES! YES!! wakakakakas! tak kisah ah i have to pay for my own expenses and the boat ride, and the performance on sunday is cancelled cos marshmallow says so. I GOT A-FULL-NO-T&C YES!! WAKKAKAAKKKAS!! happy banget!! thanks Allah:) u noe i love u truckies rite?>.<

damn short entry coz i now wanna go sleep wif a HUGE BIG SMILE ON MY FACE! please:DD

views.

awesome talk and food with ain. no matter how impromptu is it. loves lah please. macam biase lah eh... and the additional shopping stop before heading home...OMFG!! :))
altho i kinda busted my pockets with cotton on stuffs and food. lets start saving again eh?
&& about the thing with mr desperate. i'm glad my views enlighten you:DD

and then hiu ching sms ask me join some financial thingy so i did. hahahs.
u noe me being me, impulsive nak mampos.

btw, today while on the way home walking...these few words just came to mind thanks to a random stranger.

"work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt, dance like no one is watching, sing like nobody's listening and live like it's heaven on earth,"

something like that... but whatever it is, i think i've done all of those 'cept for the last part, cos rite, as al-Q says, earth is a living prison for all muslim(ah)s.

but honestly rite, if we think about it damn hard, we'll always be cautious before we do stuff and let lose. being singaporeans and learning all the hardships living on an island, where inflation goes up like no one's business and people who's damn selfish and without courtesy almost full-time, it can't be helped ah. most of us are raised like bitches and bastards who complain abt absolutely everything and blame everything on everyone else 'cept themselves, right? WRONG!

that's stereotyping like shits man. there are more to the world than what you actually think. sometimes its good to put down that audio-technica headphone of yours and listen to the world communicate its thoughts to you. sometimes its good to forget about how much you need to comb your hair or put on those makeup and just pull on your tracks and go for a run down the beach. sometimes its good to let down your hair, 'cept on friday nights cos ppl would think you're not human. hehs.

and then there's my views on relationships at the stage we teenagers are in right now. for haters of my views, please don't tag me and scream curses at me cos its just my side of the views so ppl like mr. desperate won't take the statesquo as it is now. let me tell you the statesquo now:
1) ppl get into r/s when either 1 party ask the other
2) without thinking about the long-term effects
3) and thinking about consequences of their impulsive acts.

and just coz i'm the slacker, take everythin as it come by, love everything madcap, people think i don't use an brains. k lah i admit, im not even close to a B-standard student, or what people call the averages. that does not=to me being a turkey which have its brain in its butt man.

so yah, here's my views. ppl my age in this age should think damn hard b4 they get into anything serious. here's why:

1) YOU'RE NOT EVEN EARNING ANYTHING YET=YOU'RE NOT PREPARED=YOU'RE NOT DEPENDABLE!! thanks ah.

2) if you think you're damn cool with all the r/s stuff, please eh. dah lame tak tengok cermin pe? (translation: go look the HUGE mirror please?) ppl with r/s don't have a life of their own to lead lah. that's why they WANT/CAN share half of their life away with "their other half". shessh!

3) when was the last time you repayed ur parent's kindness for raising you up and paying for all ur needs and education, which i MUST EMPHASIZE, you haven't even complete yet. haizzz.

4) besides all those stuff above, and most people would be like cursing me by now, but kan when u think about it, are u really ready for all the hassles of love? like emotionally, financially, physically, mentally? its not easy you noe. and being young-guns that we are, we'll be diving into the opportunity to feel "love". sekali in the end you realise, you're with a broken heart, empty pocket, and lost motivation for life and for another chance at a life partner. and then wat happens if in those times when u reject people, the true one really comes along? tak ker sayang? wasted giler!!

so k end of views. i can't remember the other reasons i have but if i do i'll go re-type this out later or something. hahas. its just sharing i guess. not all couples are bad. not all couples end up like wat i said. but most do and i need to save myself for my soulmate:) so yah, i guess eyecandies and crushes and infatuations are safe enough. just as long as you don't act on it. red alert on danger please.

i'm listening to MJ12 as i'm typing this out. with MY!! zen micro. shocking kan ain? finally bought it from my bro. bahahahahs! but force it out of him to give me a better bargain. hahas. k now time to buy stereos. YAY! i want audio-technica one. schenizer oso not bad. k bad in spelling. lols! kk. byes! i need go sleep ler. tmr 8AM!! TRAINING!! waaas! lols. actually damn fun ah. hehes:)) kk dah. takleh stop lak nanti. loveee u truckies k? >.<

rainy days

so its been raining, and today is the first official lag day of my hols. (*CLAPS!!)
i'm supposed to be doing accounting practices but wa liao, with muscles aching and everything...

yesterday's post did no justice to all the tiresome stuff i've been doing. i'm still sketching out the designs in my room, working on my tajwid (some religious stuff), memorising 2 different doas, for my ASAD and my prayers. hahahas. all that is not inclusive of the uber tiring but super sumo fun of practices. seriously rite, i think by the time i have my next BIT test at silat, i'll lose like 5kg already to go down to a different class. btw, i'm releasing my weight in the next line.

i'm in class C. wakakakaks! go work that out!

OUH!! I FEEL DAMN SAD! :((( cos dis sat tak leh gi tp and rp friendly cos i got dental and ASAD. waaaa! there goes my chance. but rite, i'm hoping that my dental will end early then maybe can squeeze some time to watch and support TP silat:). but fat hope ah seriously. outram ain't all customer-friendly service shits. so yah... haizzz....

so that's what we think about saturday! boo!!

let's look on the brighter side! besides getting skin cuts and muscles worked off the limit, i laughed my ass off there! TP SILAT PPL UBER ROCKS UR SOCKS OFF!! WOOTSS! damn sad i never join them earlier. erin is super joker. bahahahahahahs! L.O.L NAK MAMPOS PUNYE!!

me: "name kau harry?"
erin: "aku korek telinga kau pakai senduk baru tau! E-RIN lah!"

mind you yesterday's rain was super heavy and noisy so pardon me for my 99-yr-old hearing! wakakakakkas!

ouh rite. i forgot again. samba got prac again! woots! for the St. Patrick's day celebration performance. awesome lah. i miss samba like crapps! seriously. and suzy's dad passed away last saturday. Al-fatihah. may suzy be strong to face the challenges ahead and noe we will always be by ur side:)

results day is next week thursday. if i were to fail, i dunno wat to do. mcm nak drop out je. haizzz...

stanley has been uber funny wif his smses and pm. roflmao kind of things. i cant remember wat the joke was about but it was darn good, like McCafe's brownies! bahahahas:)

last weekend was great lah. if i has another one like dat, i think my life would be over-satisfied. bahahahahs! ouh and shoutout, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUDA!!

and i missed this baby out the last entry. let my world be filled with the rainbows of life. just like yesterday's rainbow over at sports complex. a rainbow with 2 tails. the second in my life:)

#123 POST!!

starting out at 6.15 has its gifts obviously. when was the last time i saw sunrise like dat? gereks:)

And then we were off, to get our butts worked off and honestly, i felt like i've walked all the way to London bridge lah! hahahs! but i would have died if there weren't any of these babies to cheer my day up. instantly, like kopi dangdut!! woots!!

my macro shots not bad rite? wakakakkas! first time at photography leh! (*CLAPS!!) ouh! btw, i promised lots of photos today right? so yah.... i've been wanting to show u guys my artworks from freehand drawing lessons, which i'm glad looks uber good when i tot it sucked at first. hehehes! :)