let's call quits

sorry if this post is mostly in malay. i can't help myself. cos its all about my new cca. tpsilat.

if u noe me long enough, you would have known i JUST started in silat dis year. new found passion. i dunno why. but you can throw me the worst kind of torture, dera ah, gile2 babs pun aku leh take it. tapi yang paling aku tak leh angs is people who has given me hope and new inspiration to do silat and then leave. period. like abu. like farhan. damn upsetting ah. seriously.

the only thing i have to say is that: tak semue bende boleh patah tumbuh hilang berganti. and my patience and passion can only last for so long. i cannot take anymore goodbyes.

and if you know me, i'm rarely commited to anything for longer than a few WEEKS! mind you. not that i'm the cannot commit type, but i'm the type that don't like hanging around like some EXTRA and continue being in same position unless i myself want to and its mostly due to the people there. whom i love and cherish coz whether you noe it or not, you have made a difference in my life. and its always for the better. made me stronger. i'm starting to sound mushy ah but really, if there's no reason being there, why bother right? like anyone's gonna notice me missing or miss me or anything. i'm a nobody and that's partly why i love being me. no one's gonna remember me being the hyper, stupid and weak person that i am. no one's gonna care about what i think or look like. k...i've depressed myself enough. now i'm gonna go freak myself to mj12 and then think of kambings and laughters and be optimistic again. tmr's gonna suck. back to back lectures all the way. then most prob gonna go buy bbq stuffs. nites ppl. my body and mind and soul needs rest. peace.

cos this is one of the rarest time i've ever seen your white-teeth smile;D

eh! hello=DDDD
i'm uber happy now fyi.
but im missing lots of people. esp ain! :( popeyes please? asap eh sikit.
oh. i should post another entry soon. all pics of the week ah. hahs! k dah. byes!

new break~

lets slow the pace a little, skip a few minutes just to breathe....
take in a deep breathe (*suck in air damn loud)

AND JUMP

INTO A NEW SEMESTER! NEW CLASS! NEW SUBJECTS! ;DD

just so u noe, im supposed to take up 6 core modules+apel2+new cds(ideation)+ 6 other group commitments+sem 2.1= O.O!! hahahs. =D but instead of being uber stressed, i'm like excited. i've prepared my closet and room to accept this new phase of life. woooosh! just thinking bout me being busy makes me wanna hurry up the time. hahas. but 1 thing is for sure, i'm gonna miss my sis over at her fav intern place...hahs. anyways...

i'm supposed to be doing revision for accounting. but i just got home from shopping. and guess wat i bought from funan? my dream come true Audio-Technica Headphones! which cost a WHOOPING $65! EVEN AFTER DISCOUNT! wt... but i'm so happy, i don't mind. like FINALLY KAPE! hahas. i was supposed to windowshop my new lappie but i've decided i didn't need it cos i'm gonna buy my bro's one. hahahs. ask him for half price ah abeh! make things easier. ouh yah, forgot tell u. starting from dis week onwards, mondays are gonna be rest/do tuts day for me. cos weekends are gonna be packed. and i need find a job like real soon. i dowanna be like some pig using up the family's resources like nobody's bizness. talking bout bizness, our school won again. 5th time. cam expected ah. lols! i want PICS! last week my cam didn't have batt and memory. i sooo!! wanna blog using pics cos last week was uber WICKED! hahas.

k dah. i going watch ellen. miss her show like for a month ald? woah!~ k byes!! =DD

we cheer out loud, we shout TP!

i feel so shagged. 3 days tpsilat camp.
and i stayed throughout please. just for that i deserve a =DD! hahas

bloodily enlightening and refreshing experience for me. seriously.
i've been in so many camps, but this is the first of its kind. a training camp.
where they teach u to push to the limits and make u feel like shit but at the end of the day, after all the cursings and ouchies and scratches, its all worth it. thanks to the comm. i noe its tough. trust me. been there done that. and to farhan cine. for making me realise, everything in life comes with price and if i dun work for it, its never gonna happen for me. u're a good guy underneath it all i guess coz u only want whats best for the team and u dun mind being hated and thrown bullshits at by us coz u noe we'll all be better than the day before.

and to myself, ive never as proud of u as i am right at this moment. i dun care what people say or do or think of me as ah seriously... but i really hate heavy, depressing, no laughter situations. hating doesnt mean i get angry at it. it just means im disappointed and sad and really irritated at it. i rarely get angry. u guys should noe better. but i just can't take it when i'm reprimanded for being who i am. so in a way, i kinda noe wat farhan must be feeling should anyone tell him. so yah.... understanding is the 1st step to forgiving rite? actually... missing one bus stop to home was a really awesome bad thing for me. cos despite the heavy bags and me looking like a some sweating pig in green, i managed to think, clear the head, make everything in my world right again=) and tonight, i've grown to learn.

loving the journey, every step of the way. no matter how good or bad, coz anything that doesn't kill me, can only make me stronger.

1-takketak-3!!

hey ho!
k today's entry gonna be super short.
i'm gonna post a learning link here. its bloco stuff. cos i usually forget. hahahs
NDP PRAC - please visit to learn how to flip tamborim siti:) lol!

ouh! thanks ain and the whole tpl and percussion peeps:DD
u guys awesome lah...seriously. i went home giggling at ur antics please.

off to watch man u vs sunderland eh. man u leading now...SCHOLES SCORED!
offensive mid pe~ woots!! hehehs;DD

inspiring

hey! =D
today's a wonderful day....k that was uber sarcastic. today's an learning day.
hahahahs

shoutout here: "HAPPY BDAE MY BIG BITCH!"

i didnt mean it in a bad way. wakakakaks. but tday's damn bad day to celebrate ur bdae seriously... and im sorry for it. but at least u celebrated wif family and friends. mine was belated seh... hahs. WWW downtown sucked cos of rain. we played like a freaking 1 hour only. came at 2+, rained at 3-4. went home@ 5+ cos nak gi makan b4 heading back. cam bodoh ah...did i forget to mention, the queue there so bloody long ah, and it was damn packed. so much so, i took on oni 2 rides! and those who were still at the tix booth wen it rain, confirm balik kampung hisap jari...

so anyways, i still owe the damn bitch bdae gifts! a long list of stuff he wanted, personalized man u jersey, backpack, 8GB SDHC, shoes (loafers and sneakers), study chair, clothes...among SOME on his LIST! wth... eh please eh...i shud be the guy in the house. u shud see how organised he is. and how i can't keep ANYTING clean for more than 12 hours. CREATIVITY does NOT allow RESTRICTIONS to both body and soul. so yah... wakakakaks!

so since we're talking bout creativity, some days back got a blog hopper, nadya i think her name, she has inspired me. to start writing poetry again. i got some pieces i've wrote out, but they're not as perfect as those i did back then when i was emo. now my poetry is more happier sounding...those that make u think of sunshine and picnics and laughing babies:) hehes. when i'm free, i'll make love ones. hahahs. but for now....enjoy what i hve first=DD



of kisses and smiles

the prettiness of life
is not of material, not of money
its not when you have everything in your life
its not even when you achieve your life-long dream

its the sights and sounds of everydayness
that people miss when they go through life too much too fast
that people ignore, cause they do not appreciate the smaller smiles

of the ants when they whisper to sugar
to be lighter as they carry the weight together
of the dandelions swaying in the wind
moving in tune with each other like loving twins

of the infant's giggly laughter
lightening the hearts of those who cared to hear
of the moist and warm breeze
seeking to find a moment's peace

of the soft afternoon sun
reaching out tothose who want
of the love of a child for the red toy train
so true and pure no evil can taint

i'm like busy bee~

HELLOO WORLD!!

k so i'm doomed. unless i talk to ain soon. please eh. problems tak cukup2 kape? nak mampos ah.
maybe i should tell you why i'm complaining first huh? k. tmr's an effed-up day. cos i didn't noe i commited myself to so many things and only found out bout it like...uh....half an hour ago. banged up eh, macam minum air tonik everest yang aku tak pegang2 sejak aku beli. depan mate aku seh sekarang. betul2 depan asus EeePC abang aku sebelah mr. cute2. macam nak amik lepas tu minum je... i dun even noe why i haven't throw it away yet. k like crapping now. rite now kan, aku tengah balancing act eh. i'm doing up some application form from SIFE...cos i'm nominated as a commitee member. stop it KAPE?? so anyways...tmr's, no...today's highlight:

1. WOOSUNK 2nd outing. before our chalet on friday? yuh. damn! meet at bugis, 12pm.
2. A&F subcomm workshop. ni confirm basah punye. cam tak nk pegy pun ade. but we see how. meet at hockey court, itas, 12 pm.
3. TP SIFE compulsory meeting for elected members. 2pm. outside engine. some Development centre.
4. Generus Pasir Ris meeting:) ni kene pergi cos aku in-charge duit to book bbq pit. 7.30 pm. Bawah blok cik sabariah amin.

right now, im thinkin. confirm i have to skip my woosunk outing. and that would most prob lead to me missing the whole chalet. cos aku tak tau details. I WANNA GO LAH! stupid2 me. see what i've landed myself in.... and this is the 2nd time. 1st was last sat where i sacrifised my 1st national day practice with bloco. and think about it ah...

I HAVEN'T EVEN START SCHOOL YET LEH! so much stuff. aku sendiri dah tak tau maner nak prioritise. all i know, i would go with my guard feelings, a pinch of luck, and lots and lots of doa and Allah's fate. i know Allah will only challenge me with what i can handle. if one day, i have
1. SIFE
2. TPSilat
3. ASAD
4. WooSunk outing
5. Bloco NDP prac
6. School
7. time for myself to breathe, eat and pray
all @ the same time, i will just stop and stare. serious seh. but confirm woosunk will drop off 1st. i can't last long wif any empire/grps for long. dun think woosunk will be any different from the rest ah seriously. unless people are willing to make the effort, which usually they don't. wakakakks!

ouh btw, i have this stupid2 feeling, in the future, i'll have to sacrifise so much more than just an outing with a group of camp mates. for example, this coming 14th. which is next week ah to be precise. i have silat camp from 13th to 15th. and its overnite. nightwalk and all. and guess wat...on the 14th is SL teaparty. and i should be missing it. insyallah pe... *dies ah. cos during the teaparty, they'll tell us whats gonna happen for week zero and who'll be partnering me to go with an A&F freshie class. ALL THE DETAILS!! i dowan miss. i hope i can like skip camp jap, go for the teaparty, then join back the camp. macam camp tu BAPAK AKU PUNYE PE~~ anyways, we'll see how things go ah. coz rite now, i dun even noe if the silat camp is like confirmed. everyone is like, tengok blog. O.O lol! so yah...

i'm staying up to watch liverpool against chelsea. hahs. and yestd's man u vs porto match exciting seh. but porto is good, as much as i dowan to admit. cos man u's even better eh pleassse... wakakkakaks!

interesting~

HELLO!! hahahs! as u can see i'm BETTER! ALHAMDULLILAH!!
ouh, i wanted to share some awesome quiz result i did back at facebook. and my friendster account is naturally dead. hahas! so yah...enjoyzz!

1. Siti took the What type of person are you? quiz and the result is 7. Hedonist
Hedonists are energetic, optimistic and dynamic; their appearance is full of optimism and happiness. They are spontaneous and full of fantasy, but sometimes they're impulsive and naive; they avoid pain and have opposite feelings at committing. They have a lot of persuasiveness. RELATIONSHIPS: Family and friendship is very important to you. Relationships are based on pleasure. You can be a loyal, helpful and stimulating lover, if you have experienced your own priorities. It's difficult for you to have only one lover. You also can't believe anyone would want to commit with you. FIXATION: planning VICE: unlimitedness VIRTUE: sobriety PROFESSIONS: a lot of jobs at the same time; a free, unruly profession

2. Siti took the How much of a Minah are you? quiz and the result is 100% Pure Minah
Sapppp, 100% seyyy! We'll see you at Geylang Bazaar during Ramadhan and once in a while you'll post a video of you and friends singing along to a random Malay song blasting out of your handphone/PSP. You have a boyfriend and he rides a 400cc and above motorbike. If he drives, his car radio is tuned in to Ria's Misteri Jam 12.

3. Siti completed the quiz "Which polytechnic should you be in?" with the result Temasek Polytechnic.
Temasek Polytechnic, which is reputed for its design courses, is located in Tampines, a stone's throw away from Bedok reservoir. A simple circular designed campus with the tallest 10 storeys library, and is not really environmentally friendly because the last page of all exam papers would end off with a blank page, "This page is left blank intentionally". If you're ever lazy to walk around in big campuses, TP is definitely your utmost choice!

4. Siti took the What is your Hippy Name? quiz and the result is Revolution Breeze

5. Siti took the Arsenal, Chelsea, Liverpool or Manchester United? quiz and the result is Manchester United
NI DAH OBVIOUS EH! my name got ROONEY! hahahahhahs! go figure!

6. Siti took the Which major should you choose? quiz and the result is Statistics
Like Mathematics majors, figure reports and bell-curve distribution curves are what you're best at analysing. Your ideal friend should be the graph paper. You are pretty organized and likes to plan things out. You may be good in computers but you know you can never defeat a certain group of people. Continue to work hard and be sure to be faced with loads of career opportunities in the future, but certainly not in a particular country.

7. Siti took the Math Quiz quiz and the result is Really Smart In Math!

8. Siti took the What flavour chocolate are you? quiz and the result is Fudge
soft and creamy and quite tasty to boot

9. Siti took the Who would be your celebrity boyfriend? quiz and the result is Colin Farrell
You're matched with the typical "bad boy". Even though this Irishman has had this image on his shoulders, he's still one of the hottest men around. His beautiful baby browns can swoon any woman.

10. Siti took the The Awesome Superhero Quiz of Awesomeness quiz and the result is You are APACHE CHIEF!!!!!
With the sacred words: "Inyuk-chuk!" you can make yourself really really big. Useful.

11. Siti took the Where will you go when you die? quiz and the result is Heaven
Throughout your life you always tried to stay righteous, and when it comes time for your soul to depart, you will find yourself in Heaven. For eternity, you will spend you time meeting your ancestors and watching over your loved ones. Time will be of no essence in Heaven, and boredom will be nonexistent. Continue on the path you're on if you wish this to be your fate. I hear the clouds feel squishy in between your toes.

12. Siti took the Which Greek God are you? quiz and the result is Athena
Athena is the Greek virgin goddess of reason, intelligent activity, arts and literature. Athena is the daughter of Zeus. She sprang full grown in armour from his forehead, thus has no mother. She is fierce and brave in battle but, only wars to defined the state and home from outside enemies. She is the goddess of the city, handicrafts, and agriculture. She invented the bridle, which permitted man to tame horses, the trumpet, the flute, the pot, the rake, the plow, the yoke, the ship, and the chariot. She is the embodiment of wisdom, reason, and purity. She was Zeus's favorite child and was allowed to use his weapons including his thunderbolt. Her favorite city is Athens. Her tree is the olive. The owl is her bird. She is a virgin goddess.

13.Siti took the How many kids will you have? quiz and the result is 2 Boys and 1 Girl
macam deja-vu seh~ STOP IT SAKK!!
With your daughter being the middle child, she might feel that she isn't as important because she isn't the eldest or the baby of the family, so make sure to pamper her! On the other hand, make sure to keep your food pantry stocked up because your boys will eat everything in sight once they're a bit older.

14. Siti took the What stereotype are yuu ? quiz and the result is Prep
Yuur a prep , liife iis great . briite colors briing out yuur attiitude .

k so im bored. kill me~ wakakakakkas! doing quizzes addictive sey. cannot stop. and the results ah....super FUNNY! like short ROFL stuff like those in the movie COMING SOON. yup. i watched it ald. in the movies. with a crowd of 6. excluding my bitch and me. most of the noises came from us gagging over drinks/stifling laughters/loud gasps! hahahs! but awesome story line! i loike! and ppl in facebook are tyring to maximise my trademark pose. ENJOYZZ JE LAH! =P

i feel so damn frus at my non-talking, forever sour, and non-budging mom. ape2 je lah. bukan ica tak try eh. i did wat u told me to. too bad im slow at taking hints and oni do stuff when u scream in my ear. im like dat. but i still do it don't i? just for the effort, u should thank me. not even asking for a reward lah eh, just a simple, "dah makan ca?" will do. but no. u dont even care when im sick. whatever ah. hope u see happiness when u shut urself out like dat. pfft!~

April, you've got me fooled. BAD~

so i've been like a sick bird. lying and rolling on my poor bed.

it must have creaked pain like a zillion times but i didn't bother. much less bother bout myself stinking like a 60-year old with all that Rainbow massage balm on me. thanks so much to ain and to my tpsilat people. love you guys so much for caring;)

so while i'm in pain, i've thought out bout my life choices thus far. that being said, dying wasn't one of my options, so i had to get myself healthy. ouh btw, i've had no "proper food" since wednesday. mostly liquid stuff. coz i dowan the series of throwing up 2 days of food to occur again. and this time, i had stomach flu. which was much worst than last friday's headache and fever. like seriously. at least last week, the fever broke after 2 panadols. this time i took me 8! wt...so anyways...my stomach still feels like crap but at least my head is more clear and i seriously need help with the path of life i need to CHOOSE~ coz apparently, all of it occur at the same time. like wth. stupid saturday~ why can't there be like 3 saturdays every week?! waa...

so here's it:
1. ASAD
2. TPsilat
3. TP SIFE Nationals
4. Bloco Singapura NDP
5. MY SOCIAL LIFE! (which includes, outings wif people i love and my family)

so please reply. tag me. say what u feel. coz i seriously dunno which to choose. *DIES~