boing!

FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL IS DONE!!
and it seriously was AWESOME>.<
minus a few not so flattering moments. and all that rain. k fine, i like rain.
but not the humidity.
nor the stupid financial let-down. like wth, lehman bothers...

so anyways...STARTED MONDAY WITH A BANG!!
9 am lectures isn't so very bad. not now anyways. since i found a new way to get to school:)
take bus 8. which on average get me to school in like 30 minutes? woooots! kudos SBS!

oh! && i love OUTINGS WITH AIN. ok. overstatement. I LOVE AIN!! the best talking/bitching/laughing ur ass off buddy like forever. and now i have a new favourite hotspot!
POPEYES T1 PUH-LEEESSSSEEE!!!

and oh! please don't ask me put up any pics here. it's such a chore and waste terrible time which i can't afford to lose. truthfully, i hate getting a failed posting everytime. urgh!

where was i? oh ya! monday. then i had samba. i love samba juniors please? cos we just rock>.<
and here's a shoutout. Tamborim's the best lah...

so yah...the rest of the week were fun too!
got samba OUTFIT! hang out with a&f malay clique. 1st freehand DRAWING lesson. met fira:) and daniel's in the same class too. bestlah! and next week's holiday. so SAMBA like back to back next week. tuesday, wednesday. and so nice timing and all. cos rite... its like right after my makeup lessons and all:)

i must start doing tutorials already! waa.... but for a better GPA, i'd do anything. my money's going bust soon. or rather, my parent's money. books aje cost like 50++ for 1 subject. the others 30++. and lecture notes some more. and those books are like COMPULSORY! seriously... i'm dying ah. i feel bad asking my parents for cash. if really needed then i buy ah. the 50++ one that is. sakit seh nak keluarkan duit. and i haven't even topup my monthly concession. cos tak cukup duit. like since the start of this sem, i'm like in constant need on cash. planning to pay back my parents money soon. go use the money i got from cdc ald. k problem settled. apelah bodoh sangat! wakakakas!

k i going off ald. tmr planning to go cycling in the morning, then i have like 2 wedding/tunang events to go to. OUR OH SO FAB! COUSIN IS FINALLY TOUCHING THE HOMIE! if not she forever busy with her work ah. finally she'll have little ones around her which are her own. not her brothers'. LOL! no offence yeah beb? I LOVE YOU, u know that right?

anyways, all the best KAK WIT TERSAYANG!!

k god bless. peace. && i love you(*with barney accent) hehehes!

exasperating fool of a female

& it was another night i found sleep elusive.
we all know what that meant.

the pain of today hurts like no other.
i could only be thankful for friends and family who stood by my side to lighten the burden of life.
for life of a yet-to-be-17-confused-and-love-besooted-girl is very tough indeed.
somehow i wished i hadn't enjoy myself too much these last few days. for an old saying goes, "too much laughter, is a sign of a coming tear"
and only i know how true that is. for even i didn't notice the tears wetting my spongebob tee as i'm penning this down.

i should have known, this would be coming sooner or later, for i know from experience, joy can only last for so long.
i tried so hard to numb myself against this pain but it didn't help one bit. for i am only human.
i felt so helpless as i stared into his downcast face. i felt so terribly sad i'm not one deserving of his attention, even worse, than that bloody good handphone of his. i felt hopeless. a feeling i had long discarded on the rotting shelf of my past life.

but then again, everything was wrong from the beginning. beginning of time, of life, of semester, of month, of day. sad to say, even after a wonderful day spent with friends, samba people and all, i was still caught up in my own feelings.

life as it was; utterly disappointing at times when you've been kicked so hard in the gut and there's no one to save you except for your good-for-nothing self.

& to think i had dared to believe for a happily-ever-after that was not to be. so despo was i for the life i've imagined i could lead. i was naive enough to believe tomorrow would be a better day. and see where that had gotten me. stupidly forgetting the ever important psea form, till i had to get myself drenched again and again as i'm getting my sorry ass to school again, encountering with devils of my own, getting sucky timetable for a new semester and not getting any cds at all! and to top the crop, i had forgotten to blog on blog action day and post a birthday wish to ina and ain!
bah.... i'm hoping the cake smeared onto their faces would be enough though:) hehehes....sori..camat ari aye, maap zahir batin ye... wakakakkas! :))

so weird how i can entertain myself and laugh at a simple yet complicated joke. weee!!

btw, for people who wants pics of the birthday celebration...urm, later i send via email je k? i damn lazy now and really need to catch up on sleep. and tmr still got a&f workshop. yeah..."kids" will be coming in. i'm hoping i'll be able to make myself look smarter than them (*inner mind whispers, "like real...") so anyways... see u when i see u aites.

in the meantime, i love you always:))

I'M BACK!!

thanks for the wishes while i was away.

I MISSED SO MANY THINGS WHILE I WAS AWAY!!

samba jalan raye among many things.

&& my mum's and uncle's day-case operations!! omg.

anyways...THE TRIP WAS

GAZILLIONIOUSLY-SUPER-DUPER-SUMO-SLAMDUNK- AWESOME!!

point done. i'm waiting for pics from siao wei and shawn. our ingenious photographers.

i was bunked in with stella, charmaine, siao wei and ms lee. all the important people of the trip.

and sad to say, i was down since the start so i wasn't all that sparkling translator nor was i the dependable room i/c. LOL! to be honest, i was the worst. kept everyone awake with my coughing that "shook the whole HUT!" according to charmaine! but then again, i'll take credit where due. hehehes!

so anyways!

1st and 2nd day was spent mostly at pesantren al-ghazi. I was like self-elected full-time translator and caretaker of the kids there. cos i was the only one who understood what they were talking about most of the time. and the kids were SO CUTE!! too bad i didn't get to take much photos. but when i was there, i learnt so much about so many things. i also understood the people there better. i think this trip is one of my stepping stones into maturity. like truly. bad and good was all there.

3rd day was SHOCKINGLY BLASTABULOS! what with boomnetting (that's the real fun part where you get go jump into a net at the sides of a speeding boat!) and first-time kayaking (alone!) and swimming towards another ISLAND! and not forgetting the blood-churning 10-storey high FLYING FOX INTO THE SEA! it was all FUN!! one of the reasons i didn't wish to go home on the last day. oh btw, I HAVE AFFAIRS there!! hahahas! to think of it now, it brings on a smile on my face:)) cos rite, i'm the only malay girl there, leading to all the incessant teasing from the loola coordinators especially dul! irritating lor! he came with a speedboat, zoom pass me, so that i can't kayak cos of the waves. and he did it TWICE. ON PURPOSE!! wth. lols!

i am really glad i didn't have doubts about the trip cos i think i share samuel's view. this is one of the best camps you can ever go through. its 4 days worth of experience that you can bring with you throughout your whole life. i learnt appreciation, discipline, responsibility, honesty and simplicity.

life is great when u take the chance to step back and look at it from a new point of view. that's all i can say.

oh btw, on the last post right, bs screwed me up. so i didn't get to post up the post. it was about my hari raya celebration and all. and photos also can't be uploaded. i dunno wats wrong but planning to find out soon. as for now, i'm off to jalan raye with my primary school friends. i swear it'll be fun. 11 people going man! awesome or what? WOOOOO!!!

BINTAN!...*cough*cough

HEY!!


i'm sick.
such depressing news considering i must be well by sunday:(

oh btw, i'm departing for bintan on monday. reporting time: 7am, tanah merah taxi stand.

and my task there, translator cum culture/language breaker.
and god help me, i hope i'm well when i'm there. and my period will stop soon. please!

i need to report lots of stuff.

i officially in IG. most probably and hopefully in main comm. cos we've gone through lots of troubles doing up the getWET Day stuffs and all. not to mention the bad-day interview.
btw, dry run for getWET was awesome! considering we got almost everyone soaking wet(literally!) shessshhh:DD

i'm missing samba truckloads. cos i missed the last training and i dunno when's the next training. we're performing in the arts fest in November (hint! hint!) in a collaborative effort with salvo drums!! just imagine the BOOM of it! :) hehes!

my room is made up. like WOW! well, besides the fact that i painted the whole bloody room myself, (with double coating!) and did all the furnitures in it DIY, and the designs haven't been painted yet, i think its ok:) oh btw, i did and redid the designs truckloads of times. need ur help to choose which one will look the nicest when painted against a pure white wall.




and my house's brand new too. well, as in the feel of it>.<>

i'm gonna post up another blog rite after this one ok? cos i think this part is done:)